STIGMA'S BEATEN SOUL

Last night

Hee Byol's

I plopped down on my bed breathing out tiredly looking at the ceiling remembering the times I lied to my mother

I stood up feeling so empty I grabbed my clothes and went inside the bathroom stripping my clothes off and layed down on the bath tub opening the faucet and the shower the cold water drenching my skin

I looked at my cuts blinking the incoming tears away I looked at myself getting disgusted

Jet black hair,small thin face dark circles obviously seen under my eyes not to mention the hickeys on my neck

I hugged my knees like my life depends on it and just like what I expected tears started gushing down from my eyes I tried to contain my sobs but failed I closed my mouth and covered it with my hands wishing that no one heard it I tried to calm down but it just gets worse my body starts to shake my body getting paler by the second I looked at my reflection on the water seeing the redish-purple marks on my neck

Anger filled my system I quickly grabbed my neck digging my nails into it blood spilling and mixing into the water I scratched it peeling off some of my skin

I'm being stupid if I said it did not hurt...It hurts like a bitch!

But what hurts the most is knowing that I was weak and helpless

My body shivered to the max remembering what happened on the forest

I quickly got out of the bathtub and closed the faucet dried myself and wore my casual clothes I was gonna open the door when once again I saw myself

I glared at my reflection anger filling up my body

'you're so fucking weak you dumbshit!' I yelled and walked out of the bathroom feeling nothing but pure hatred to myself 

And one things for sure I can't stand a second in here knowing that my only presence is here I grabbed all the mirrors in this room and put it inside the now empty cabinet and walked out of my room seeing that some of my members were filling the hallway I pulled up my hoodie and walked straight not looking anywhere but the ground like a blind person

'tss look at her...a slut walking carelessly in our quarters makes my day bad' a deep voice said

'she's not even embarrased of showing her hickeys'

I know that I'm acting like I don't care but it really hurts me but still I can't complain knowing that maybe its true

I walked faster until I reached and turned the doorknob hearing it click I ran.outside the cold breeze hitting my face I kept running until I felt my getting tired all of a sudden I sat at the ground noticing the texture of  the grass that's when I realized I'm at the open field

I layed down balls of gas looking at me so brightly my body wants to cry but my eyes just doesn't want to I closed my eyes and sighed I touched my chest and felt a cold material on top of it

I opened my eyes and lifted the material noticing the circle shaped pendant around my neck

I smiled a little thanking Jaehyun for giving it to me I opened it and looked at the beautiful girl inside

'thank you for giving me a person like Jaehyun' I looked at the stars amazed by.the beauty

When my phone rung I looked at the caller's ID seeing that its an unknown caller but still I answered it...

"hello?"...

Jaehyun's pov

I'm standing at the rooftop looking at the sky tears staining my face but still a smile crept into my face

I looked at my phone dialing the only person I cherished for a short time

After 2 rings she picked up

"hello?"

I just listened to her steady breathing remembering every moment

"if this is just a prank...I'll hang up"

I snapped out and opened my mouth

"Hee Byol"

The line went silent for a while a sudden gasp escaped at the other line

"Jaehyun?"

"yeah its me"

"uhmm...do you need something"

I bit my lip to conceal my sobs and exhaled

"one will fall and one will fly"

I cursed at myself mentaly for speaking noticing that my voice was shaky

"what are you saying?"

"I'm saying that take care of yourself...once I fall I'm sure that you'll fly always be happy and don't you dare kill yourself...please take care of her for me and someday you'll love yourself"

"what are you talking about"

"I'll come with her"

I closed my eyes and jumped off

Hee Byol's pov

He never talked and I just heard the wind whistling dramatically on the other side my heart starts to raise

"don't tell me----"

I heard bones breaking...my eyes widened the phone dropping from my hands

"J-jaehyun" I whispered

I stared at nothing feeling nothing but emptiness remembering the times we shared

Minutes later I heard screams of fear and sadness
Students ran towards the scene

My feet automatically standing up walking towards the scene seeing a dead body soaked in his own blood while a small smile was on his face

My mind feels numb no feeling was seen from me I just looked at the corpse of my now dead friend 
Police officers and nurses came rushing in checking if he was still breathing but looking at his face its pretty sure that he was dead

Cries and gossips erupted everywhere I was walking away when a girl spoke

"aww too bad I never got the chance to hit on him...tss so stupid for killing himself"

The girl whined saying that she should have hitted on him first then die after

My body shook because of anger I walked towards the girl and grabbed her colar and looked intensely at her

"What the fuck did you say!!!"
I glared at her

"get away from me you bitch!"

"what a word coming from a disgusting slut like.you!"

She grabbed my hands but I only gripped it tighter ripping some part of her small cloth

"listen you psycho!....why the fuck do you care"

"wow....what a dumb slut saying that you should have taken advantage of him before he died....what kind of shit is that!"

I gripped her colar tighter slightly choking her anger filling up my system my gaze never leaving her makeup filled eyes

Until an adviser pulled us apart looking at me with anger on her eyes

"Ms.Park do you really like to make a scene"

"do you know what she said!"

"nonsense I will not believe a girl without a heart"

My gaze softened as I sighed and walked away

"I know no one will believe me"

I went to my room and slept all my problems

---hey guys omfg I'm crying right now anyways jhope you liked it

Anyways I'mma celebrate my 185 reads never expected that it would reach 100 thanks for reading this stupid ass book

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