only a month

Im sorry!

I woke up the next morning and went downstairs. I saw my dad and rolled my eyes. I grabbed a box of pop tarts and a water and ran back upstairs. when I put everything on my bed I heard a knock on my door. "who is it?" I asked. "It's me." My dad said. "go away!" I said. "fine." He said. I heard footsteps and grabbed my remote. I decided to watch here comes honey boo boo. I opened the box of pop tarts and ate two packs (Cuz I'm fat like that.) and grabbed my phone. I checked my messages and saw ten from Hayes.

H: hey babe I miss you sooo much 😭

H:baby answer your phone!!

H:soph are you ok?

H:we have to talk!!

H: u saw the picture didn't you?

H:babe I can explain!

H:I swear I didn't post it!

H:we have to talk right now!!!

H: Sophie why are you dodging my texts and calls? you have to pick up! I really have to talk to you about something!

H:I love you soph never forget that...

I started crying and called Monique. "soph I'm so sorry! he's a douche!" she said. "its ok moni, he said he wants to talk about something. and he swears he didn't post that pic but he obviously did because he never let's anyone touch his phone and he never gives anyone his password to anything." I said. "soph I think you should call him back... ill talk to you later, ok? everything will be okay." she said. "ok your right bye." I said and hung up.

I dialed Hayes's number and he answered on the first ring.

"Soph?! are you ok?! I swear I can explain everything! and babe I have to tell you something that's been on my mind since I left." he said all in one breath. " Hayes calm your tits I'm fine and you better explain because if you didn't post it then who did? and go ahead say what's on your mind!" I said furious.

H: Sophie I'm breaking up with you.. I'm sorry soph I just can't go on anymore. my ex, Sasha, just came back and we didn't break up cuz we wanted to. we broke up because we had to, her dad had to move in with his mom in Mexico so she had to go with him. and now that she's back... I have to be with her. I'm sorry soph." he said.

S: hayes.......Hayes you............ you promised...........you promised that you would love me forever! I loved you! I fell harder and harder every time I saw you, every time I heard your voice..... every damn time I fell harder and now I'm forced to get back up! Hayes please never call or text me again! it would be best if you delete my number..........it would also be best of I wasn't here anymore.."

H: soph please don't say that! you have to be here! you are gonna die and old lady with lots of kids and grand kids.

S:no I'm worthless, unwanted, fat , ugly, and have no point in even living. so bye forever Hayes.'' I said and hung up. I kept his number so I could text him one last time. I cried my eyes out and texted Monique. "hey Monique um I'm gonna go to your house tomorrow so you can see me one last time." I said. she replied back instantly . "soph what the hell are you talking about?!" I didn't reply. I got my razor and cut myself two more times. I watched the blood drip In my sink and looked up at the mirror. I got my razor again and cut my self to every name people had called me. "ugly" I cut myself. "fat" I cut myself . "worthless" I cut myself. "unwanted" I cut myself. "freak" I cut my self. "slut!" I said and cut my self one last time. I washed off the blood and cried when the water hit my arm because it stung so much. I wrapped a bandage around my arms and decided to take a nap. in my dreams I had a flashback of when Nash kissed me. in my dreams me and Nash grew old together and had 4 kids. but Hayes wasn't in the picture at all.

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