12:00 PM
I laid in on my bed staring up at the ceiling. Valerie and I just got done doing business and sex was great, It always was. Today was even better, I made love to Kandi.....through Valerie, but that was something she didn't know. Valerie never questioned where I went, she didn't even have a clue. I was sorry, but the night with Kandi was the highlight of everything. I wanna know her. I wanna see her again. I might just.... but then there's Valerie. I love her, I do. I knew that when I've first seen her I had to have her, its just... Kandi and I have this connection. I could feel it.
Valerie-"Mmm baby, I'm so tired out. "
The Weeknd
She rested her head on my naked chest, wrapping her arms around me and kissing my cheek. I didn't really want to cuddle with her... it was just only right now, but I didn't move. I wasn't focusing on Val at the moment.... Kandi was on my mind. Shit... I struggled with my conscious on a daily basis. What I wanted was Valerie, but I kept slipping. I reached over the side table and grabbed my lighter and lit up a cigarette.
The morning is quite. Valerie is pleased.... I'm empty again, but not exactly. I feel Valerie moving her body towards me and then climbs on top of me pressing her nails into my chest. She wants to go again.... She gently takes the cigarette from my lips. "You don't smoke." I laughed. She tried to be bad.
Valerie-"So? First time for everything Abel."
The Weeknd
She puffs on the cigarette and starts to choke on the smoke. "Goddamn Valerie!!" I sit up and take the cigarette away from her. "You good?" She finished up coughing and nodded her head in response. "Baby, calm down." I move from under her body to get out the bed she stares at me as I slip on my pants.
Valerie-"Are you going to the studio again?"
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Why did it matter? I shook my head. "Mm I don't know. Possibly." I squashed the cigarette bud into the ash tray and I looked to see that Valerie's eyes were disappointed. She wanted me to stay. I felt guilty, but I couldn't focus all my attention on her even though I should, but I can't I can't focus on anything. I was a shitty man to her. "Val, don't look at me like that."
Valerie-"Like what? Abel I'm all good, I understand your music career. Trust me."
The Weeknd
Lies. Val couldn't hide what bothered her, but that bothered me. "Hmm? Come here." I suddenly remembered how beautiful Valerie was and for a while the thought of Kandi was now a disappearance. She slowly walked towards me with one of my shirts on and I wrapped my arms around her. "Too beautiful to be upset... don't be upset Val." I pushed her hair from her face and kissed her on the lips which lasted for a good minute.
Valerie-"I'm proud of what you do Abel, I really am. I know you don't mean to come home late. I know you're busy baby."
The Weeknd
She grabbed onto my clothes tighter and wouldn't let go. Damn, she believed that I was busy, and I was.... just busy with other things. I don't think she understood.
Valerie-"You.... want breakfast? "
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"Yeaaaa" I dragged my words. I was not in the mood for breakfast food, but I couldn't remember the last time I had breakfast with my girl. I rested my head in my hands and watched her prepare a meal. My phone went off and it was a message from Drake saying to stop by the studio in a few. Valerie pretended not to care as I checked my phone. "Drake wants me to stop by the studio" I smiled, but she paid attention to the stove.
