Okay, so.....
Ha, I don't really know how to start these sorta things
Um
A while back, I had this dream where I was informed that my life isn't actually my life. That I wasn't 13, I was 30. That I lived in a mental hospital because I went insane after watching my sister kill herself, and forced myself to believe this mindset that I was still 13 and created a world where she was still alive.
It's all been....scary. However, on Friday, I kinda just....stopped feeling emotions. Everything is numb. I can't feel anything but my own blood rushing through my veins. In situations where I'm meant to be happy, I act happy. Situations where I'm meant to be sad, I act sad. I'm a good actress. Anyway.
The only thing I can feel is pain. Not emotional pain, physical pain (I only know this because I have a pimple and my bra is pressing against it and it really hurts-). Anyway, it's been making me think. It's been making me wanna cut again. Because....pain is better than feeling empty. I need help. Everytime I told this to someone, they either laughed at me or told me "That's a shame."
I don't know what to do
I need help
Please
