Adopted By One Direction

Chapter 21

Chapter 21:

My body is numb, it always seems to happen when my gut is proven correct. Every time I convince myself to allow ignorance to over ride reason, it never works in my favor. How many more times will I allow myself to be so stupid? Of course he knows where I am, of course he is coming, because that is the kind of sick man he is. Harry’s breath seems to be taken, no emotion displayed on his face. As the seconds pass, I see the truth hitting him and his fear growing. He sweeps my body in his arms while standing up and places me on his hip in one swift motion, before making his way out of the room with me tightly kept on his waist. His legs pace urgently to the sitting room where the rest of the my dads are bound to be. He storms in throwing his phone on the couch next to Louis and Niall yelling so close to my ear it hurts, “We need to leave, now!” My body tenses before reminding myself that I am safe right now, these aren’t the ones I need to be fearful of. Liam sees me tense from the shouting and quickly steps forward reaching his arms out to take me, just to assure that if Harry were to get out of hand I would be at a safe distance. “Maddie what happened?” Liam whispers in my ear has he sits us down on the love seat. My heart rate starts to quicken from the anxiety bubbling around the room. I turn so I can whisper in Liam’s ear, “He knows.” Is all I have the courage to say, and is all that is necessary. 

As the news spreads around the room, and that only takes a matter of seconds, the panic begins to fall around us. No one exactly knows where to go from here. The honest truth is the possibility that he is buffing, that he really is in England and is just trying to scare us. I have no doubt in my mind he knows where I am, after all, the boy’s fans took pictures of us all day long. Our whereabouts are bound to be on the internet somewhere. The real question being whether or not he will do anything about it. He is no fool, and the likelihood of him making it pass all of my dads’ security guards is slim. My guess is he will wait it out, feed the fear in all of us to the point of constant paranoia. Once he knows we are in his control, he will strike. His plan begins here. 

I listen to all the mad talking around me, suggestions of escaping to crazy destinations in search of peace. They go back and forth, the noise levels rising by the second. Within moments the room is total chaos and my hands find themselves shielding my ears from all the noise. Liam wraps both hands around my waist, pulling me close to him, a reminder that I am still here and that he wasn’t won yet. My tolerance level for all their nonsense seems to vanish, and I soon find myself ripping myself out of Liam’s grasp. From there, I stand in the middle of the room, collecting all the attention I need without saying a word. I feel their eyes staring up at me but I do not allow myself to close up. “Please, stop, nothing will get solved with this chaos. This is exactly what he wants.” I say with as much demand behind my voice I can muster up, yet as usual my voice fails me and desperation is all that is heard. “This is my father, and I think its safe to say I know him best. Yes, he knows where we are, but how could he not? We’re all over the internet I’m sure of it. Like you said before, he does not have the means to travel as you all do. My guess is he is trying to get to me from a distance. He wants me to not trust you anymore, to get scared and have no where to turn. We- I have to stay calm. If he really is here, and he really is coming for me, then I’ll- We’ll have to figure something else out, I guess. Or maybe-” I start rambling at the end of my speech, my words only meant to comfort me because the pit in my stomach is growing and I suddenly feel as if the battle is already lost. My mind is working twice as fast as my mouth. For some reason I feel the need to keep going, to get all of the ideas floating around out of my head, to somehow come full circle back to sanity. 

My eyes are glued on the floor because that is the only place that seems not to be spinning. Slowly my eyes snap out of it and look up at the boys all sitting with scared expressions, all watching me, and I have an even more scared expression. I look up in surprise for I just felt so distant from everyone around me. Embarrassment of my fears kicks in and I take my seat next to Liam slowly, hoping no one will say anything to try to comfort me right now. I shouldn’t be so ashamed to be scared, but I know that when this reaches it’s climax, I will be the one who will suffer the impending pain. I have no other choice than to take what is heading my way. My mind won’t turn off and words are no longer filtered through my head and as if I am unconscious I begin to whisper, “He’s going to win, I have no other choice but to let him take me. He is going to torture me, I won’t even be lucky enough to be killed, I will have to go back. He’s going to rape me, to take back all of the life inside me I was beginning to have. Maybe, just maybe if I give up now he will take me and no harm will be done to my dads. Maybe he will show mercy on me for a while. Maybe- maybe if I die now. Die in peace, he won’t get the chance to hurt me.” My mouth moves to fast and the words I speak are only intended for me, in that moment I forget the boys are with me and they are now hearing my deepest and darkest thoughts. Liam jumps to snap me out of it by scooting closer to me and pushing me into his lap. In that moment, where I thought for even one second about killing myself, the boys knew they had to act fast.