The girl in tutor class💓 E•D

chapter 3

harper's p.o.v
its been a few weeks and i've settled in but haven't made friends. i didn't want to. not after last time.
it's Friday and i have a whole weekend until i started 'new jersey hall high' people call it... NJdoubleH which i think sounds dumb for a school. but anyways i was scared, very scared. i didn't know what to do to contain this feeling? excitement? sadness? nervous? i couldn't tell what one.

after a few minutes of over thinking, i got a message. i walked to my phone with confusion. if i have no one to talk to right now, whose texting?. i look at the message... my eyes shot open and begun too blur with the tears filling in them.

imessage from...
Brooklyn🤬; hey you fucking slut!! how's your new place, can't wait to oncee againnn ruin your life. i want you dead, just stop longing this out, end it.

how the hell did she get my new number, i was sobbing. not again, not again. i can't go through this again.

*later that night*
it was 1am saturday morning. i was still sobbing, i didn't eat, again. i was depressed
i was diagnosed with depression when i was 13, the times where i would cry all the time not knowing why, the sadness took over. i'm still like that. it's been a year that i've been doing this to myself. it feels like the only way to let go.

i finished sobbing at 1:45am, i had no one, i'm alone, by myself. i needed to let go again...
i went to the bathroom, i fiddled with my blade... you know the rest.

ethan's p.o.v
it's 2am, i can't sleep, i was thinking about that girl but it's been weeks. i don't remember what she looked like. But i knew she was gorgeous. all i remember is her blush, the cute blush but she also looked scared, i was confused. why are you scared mystery girl. i so badly want to find out who she is, maybe make that emotion leave, make her happy not scared.
i think all these things and realising to myself, i've never thought like that for a girl? what the hell is going on.

*the next day*
gray decided to jump on me this morning at 10am, why not later gray, you piece of shit. i got up and pulled on my pj bottoms walking to grayson. "well, hello brother. what brings you here?" he said trying to sound innocent. "shut the fuck up man" i shouted throwing a pillow at him, "you're annoying go fuck one of your hoes!" i started to walk out as i heard him yell back, "already did, boyyyy!!!!!!!". what a fuck boy.

*later that night*
i had school tomorrow... i really can't be assed with all these lessons then tutoring after school. i really hate school, i only like being popular with gray and all our friends like jack, aaron, nick, bradley and jordan. also with all these girl chasing after us wow, hard work. i'm joking!!! i'm not like gray who fucks every girl he see's, everyone thinks i am so i act it. i'm actually waiting for right one, you get me?

harper's p.o.v
it's sunday night? already. what i was that much into teen wolf?. i was pretty much wasting my life away eating nutella and drinking coke whilst watching teen wolf on netflix. man.. styles is my baby, so sexyyyy.
it was 8:30pm and i thought i might aswell pamper myself because i need the happiness right now plus i have time. i grabbed my face mask from my drawer, strolled to the bathroom and applied the mask. i looked in the mirror 'at least you're trying harp, well done'. i ran myself a hot bath, put on ' somebody else - the 1975' and jumped in. i shaved every placed i needed to, washed myself till i was minty. i got out, unplugged the bath and watching it go down the drain. i brushed my hair and teeth then it was now 9:40pm, so i threw on my jim jams and cuddled in bed . i instantly fell asleep to the sound of 'i like it when you sleep for you are so beautiful yet so unaware of it- the 1975'

author's note💓
{hiiii guyssss, hope ur liking it so far. sorry for the triggering bit!! it's half 12 and i'm tired... otherwise i would have made this chapter longer so yh. anywhooooo, i love ethan dolan. GOODBYEE😭😂}