The girl in tutor class💓 E•D

chapter 9

harper's p.o.v   

                                                                                                                                                                                       ethans lip were pressed against mine, moving slowly in harmony. the kiss felt like little fireworks bursting... going wild, he was my first kiss and he made it feel amazing. my emotions were going wild. 

slowly he started to move his hands down from my face to my waist picking me up ,not breaking the kiss and spinning us around so i was laying below him, one hand holding my hip for support and the other on my face. i threw my arms around his neck, kissing him back but suddenly a new feeling erupted in me when i felt his tongue dance with mine. i lost it, he had me wrapped round his finger, not literally but i was loosing my mind. his hand trailed up my shirt to my waist grabbing it roughly making me arch my back,  making me trail my hands to his. that gave him an advantage to kiss my jawline and slowly trailing down to my neck and behind it, leaving bite marks and hickeys, each time making me moan and scratch his back with pleasure. did this mean he was marking his territory? 

my breathing become heavy and in tune with his as he left marks on my neck. he grabbed my thighs squeezing them and lifting it around his torso. his body against mine made my want him more. he blew my mind. my hands traveled to his hair, messing it up but a small moan left my lips when he broke the kiss putting his forehead against mine. "I've been wanting to do that for a while now." he said out of breath.

ethans p.o.v

"I've been wanting to do that for a while now."i said panting. i laid by her side, looking at how beautiful she was. "me too." she whispered. she turned around towards me and i pulled her onto my chest, resting my hand along her neck. she started to drift asleep to the feeling of my fingers brushing against her neck.

i watched as she drifted to sleep, she was smiling and holding my shirt tightly. then she was gone. i started to feel bad when my fingers were brushing over all the bites and hickeys, did i hurt her? did she want them?. i carried on looking at them, her skin was dark and bruised. her neck was covered in them.

*in the morning*                                                                                                                                                                      i woke up to harper still on my chest, breathing slowly. she was so cute, i placed a kiss on her head then reached for my phone. it was 6:35am on Friday. shit i have school. i tried to wake up harper, moving her a little "harp i have to go school and you're mum might see me" she groaned at what i said, tugged my shirt and fell back asleep. i guess im not going school today.

i fell back asleep playing with her hair, dam i wish she was mine.

harpers p.o.v                                                                                                                                                                         i woke up on ethan's chest, one hand on my back ad the other in between my hair, he was fast asleep. he looked so cute, last night was intense and it was only a make out. i sat up and started to over think... what if he fins out? what will happen? will we get together? i started to get a little scared but i knew ethan would help me through it.

 i got up slowly not waking him up. i looked in the mirror to see my neck was covered with hickeys and bites, mum will kill me, i grabbed hoodie, shoved it on and went downstairs to the kitchen. my mum was there sitting at the island eating, i didn't see the twins so i guessed there were at school. she got up, her eyes widened, she pushed mt head to the side to see the hickeys and grabbed my shoulders, shaking me." harper please tell me hes not crazy and you used protection this time!?" she yelled." and what the hell happened at school for you to fight a girl!?". i walked around her getting a little annoyed. " mum we are not dating we didn't have sex! ... and keep your mouth shut he doesn't know!" i whisper -yelled at her.

ethans p.o.v                                                                                                                                                                           i got up after i saw harper wasn't there. i walked downstairs and i heard talking so i stopped.       " mum we are not dating we didn't have sex!... and keep your mouth shut he doesn't know!" i don't know what? what is she not telling me? 

" you have hickeys everywhere but apparently you are not dating?! so he doesn't know about your depression and all your cuts?!... let me see your arms harper!!"  depression? why is she depressed? CUTS? WHY IS SHE CUTTING?!

harpers p.o.v                                                                                                                                                                        mum grabbed my arms and i gave out a little whimper. "you've cut more, way more... haven't you?!" she yelled  "mum be quiet please!" i whispered. " are you scared he will come back? are you afraid of what he did? harper... come on tell me!" she yelled again, i fell on the floor crying, of course hes knows now. " yes i am! im terrified! what if it happens again? what if i go through it all again... i cant deal with the depression, i want to leave this place i don't want to feel this pain no more!!"  i was crying, sobbing i was having a breakdown, mum got down and hugged me. i looked over her shoulder to see ethans head by the door, he looked worried,... shit... he knows...

authors note                                                                                                                                                                           {heyyyyy guysss,  so what do you think happened?..... im going to try post as much as i can, i have time. anywhooo i love ethan dolan GOODBYE x}