Rwby fanfic

Ch.19

I'm single now. Thank you again for the help grimmein. If you like this story check out my oc x nora story I have already published a few parts for.

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     I throw my hatchets into tree a branch to throw me into the air as high as I can. Air whistles as I sail through the sky, aura blazing around me.
     "She can't love me. She can't fix me. No one can. They all leave in the end and will leave me worse off. It happens every damn time and they lie about it. Why can't they be fucking truthful about it instead of being lying shits that leave me off worse? They'll learn. Just not from a monster like me. Now I need to die alone like every other monster."
       My aura braced me for my landing and once again I throw my body up into the sky using my hatchets. I see a nevermore flying and growl,"Just let me die in peace you bastard." I launch a hatchet and it plants in the beasts wing. Using the rope, I pull myself up to the Grimm. Instead of killing it immediately I use it for a short term taxi. A few minutes later I see a clearing. I raise my hatchets and cut off the nevermore's right wing off. It spirals squawking in pain afraid of the plummeting death it will meet. I hop off of the thing and fall. The nevermore lands behind me and died on impact. Using my hatchets I launch myself in the air again.
     Once I land I see a cave."Lucky me, a hole for me to crawl in and die." The walls are illuminated from my aura around my fists. I walk to a side of the cave and sit leaning against the wall.
    Tears stream down my cheeks as I keep thinking, unable to not spiral like the nevermore I had just killed. "The saddest thing about this is they were warned. That instead of caring to stop it they sent me away and took the cowards way out. And that the one person who cared I have a crush on.  But I know it would go to shit. Everything does. It's what happens when you're cursed before birth I guess. Hopefully though Blake understands this is best for her. She has Sun, he will take care of her. Even if she loved me this is better for her. She can't love a monster because this isn't some Disney movie."
     Tears stream down my face. I pull out my scroll and start listening to creep. It seems to suit me at the moment after all. "Might as well go ahead." My fingers slide across my ropes and unwind them off of me. The rope falls to the side and I pick up my hatchet. The blade reflects light off of it, beckoning me on. It cuts through my wrist in ease. I move to my left wrist and slash across it. Blood drops from the cuts and I watch them splatter and pool on the ground. It stains my finger tip and I move my hand to a part of the dry floor. My blood cakes the floor as my finger dances across the dirt. My music changes to hurt. I look down at my message and smile.
     "I'm sorry. I don't deserve you." I think as memories flash through my mind.

     " You won't hurt anyone Y/n, not anyone but you. We both know this better than some old warning of a man that people once betrayed. Let them in and help you. It's the only way to make the scars to truly go away." He walks out of the room.

      What's going on?" I ask, still not bothering to un curl or even open my second eye.
"Ruby thought it would be a good idea to have breakfast with you on your first day as a free man since your schedule is already filled with you being a lady killer." Daniel says

      I relax and scoot a little farther in her embrace.
     "Puppy wants to cuddle?" Yang says smirking
     "Puppy is sleepy." I say blushing
     "Does puppy need to be carried?" She asks
     "Puppy does no-" she picks me up bridal style before I could finish. And guess where my head wound up, pressed against her chest.

     I sit up,"What are you doing here? What about school?" I ask the ravenette
"It's Saturday goof. I made you breakfast."
"Weeeell I just so happen to have some time to squeeze in my schedule. I think I can spare a few minutes for you." I say
She chuckles," Thanks, you really know how to make a girl feel special."

     Blake's cheeks turn red," You talk a lot more one on one, why?" She asks
     "Well in groups I get talked over more and no one really pays attention to what I say. That and I'm not a fan of everyone hearing my conversations. So I like one on one hangouts but three is ok. Any more than that then I'm just there for most of it really."
       "And here I thought I was special." She joked
       "You're a good friend of mine. Real friends to me are purrrrrrecious." I tell her
       She rolls her eyes at me with a smile.

      "I'm sorry, but you were wrong Ozpin. I'm sorry Blake but this is better for you. Heroes get the girl, not the monster that's been kicked all its life. I actually had a crush on you, but I couldn't just in case. Everyone leaves every time no matter what they promise me. I'm sorry team, I tried. You guys were great but it was hard for me to open up. After all when you're family hates you it's hard to get a new one. Even if you guys took in a random naked Faunus kid with weird as hell eyes. All of you are amazing, but I just can't anymore. The only thing I had left to live for was to help others, and then I gave them hell. I know I was kidnapped and tortured and raped for a year, rejected by my family, and well you know what happened with Yang so maybe the world just wants me in the grave. Either way, once I can't even do the one thing I lived for it was gonna happen. But I got pissed. Yang, I hope you learn from this. You didn't kill me, but that doesn't mean what you did was excusable. Try not to go to hell, I don't want to see any one of you there."
     My vision fades into black and I can only think one thing,"do better than me." I black out.