Watching Her Love You

Chapter 9

The truth of the matter was this; Kara Danvers hated the arrangement.

It wasn't because she didn't have feelings for both women, it wasn't that she didn't enjoy having two girlfriends... The reason she hated it was that not only was maintaining two relationships extraordinarily operose to accomplish with her immensely demanding schedule; it was that she just couldn't make up her damn mind. They were both astonishing.

They both were amazing kissers.
They both were romantic.
They both loved her more than she could comprehend.
They both were powerful, influetial, and successful.
They both were patient and understanding about her schedule.

Which made choosing between these two women harder than she had anticipated. Everything was surreal to her, she had no idea how she had gotten these two incredible women both vying for her love and at times, she wished that she hadn't. She wished that everything could just stop because she didn't want to lose either of these women, but she knew that she had to choose because carrying on like this permanently would make all three of them miserable.

It had been a month since she had first kissed Lena, and they'd gone on three dates since then; the latest one was just two nights ago.

She had gone on three and a half with Cat, but their date that night had been cut short by a Supergirl emergency, which was why she was flying back to her DC penthouse, (that was half-packed up for her return to National City the following week) to resume it, but her mind was still flooded with confusion. Everything with Cat was familiar, inviting, and comforting, but everything with Lena was new and exciting.

With Cat, she was sure that what she was doing was okay, she was used to kissing her, used to holding her, used to holding her hand, and loved doing it all.

With Lena, she was nervous to say the wrong thing, knowing how sensitive she was, she wasn't sure what their relationship would be like, but she also loved every moment of it.

Cat was confident in a sexy way, she was no nonsense when it came to her professional life, but privately, she was loving, tender, and a bit of a romantic. She put up the harsh bravado so that she was taken seriously, but the moment she shed the CEO role and was in the comfort of her home she was just as normal as the next. She had played the role of her mentor, then friend, and then, finally lover before they had broken up, and falling back into that last role once again felt as natural as breathing.

Lena, on the other hand, never hid her true self. She was always gentle and a bit unsure of herself, but that didn't take away from anything. She was strong, smart, and one of the most loving people she knew. She wasn't as romantic as Cat, but Kara believed that was only because she was too scared to 'push too far' and make Kara uncomfortable... But every date they had was magical none the less. Lena had played the roles of acquaintance, mentee, best friend, and now girlfriend, and although it was a direct contrast from Cat, their relationship wasn't any less happy.

It was safe to say now, that although these women were entirely different from each other, they both were perfect for her. She just had to decide which one of them was the most perfect.

She sighed, shook off the confliction she was feeling, and then touched down on Cat's porch. She rose her hand to knock, but then remembered that this was her girlfriend's home and knocking wasn't necessary. She smiled at the reminder that Cat was once again her girlfriend and then opened the door.

When she reached the dining room, the lights were dimmed, and Ferenc Hegedus was playing softly in the background. Kara's heart was pounding in her chest. "Cat?" She called out in a cracked voice.