Team 10 against the living dead (t10 ff)

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EMILY:
I woke up still really ill and not myself I was laying in bed when Tessa walked in and got into my bed

Tessa:I still can't believe he's gone
Emily:me either
Tessa:you need to take your tablets
Emily:I'm fine
Tessa:no your not
I groaned and got up I walked downstairs and took my tablets

Anthony was sitting on the sofa looks like he hasn't slept Chance was feeding ruby

I put my head in my hands I felt so ill and heart broken I hated it I walked upstairs

Got dressed into black leggings and a pink Martinez's twins top my black bomber jacket and my white Yeezys

I brushed my hair and teeth covered my black eye what is going away quickly and walked downstairs

Tessa:where you going
Emily:going to see Ivan's room
I walked to jakes house and walked to Ivan's room

No body was gone but all his stuff was there I sat on his bed just looking around

I went through all his stuff when Jake was leaning on the door frame Sophie is still staying at my house but she went out earlier

Jake:I miss him
Emily:you don't understand how much I miss him his stories his jokes his pranks always made you laugh on a bad day

I kept some of Ivan's sweatshirts for me the pictures his phone and some other things

Jake:can I keep the photo of me him and Emilio
I handed it to him he hugged me I cried into his chest he didn't say anything he just held me

Emily:it hurts so much just after my moms and sisters death anniversary and all this pain is soooo draining
Jake:i know it is but it will get better i promise you but em you are going to witness so many more deaths close to you,at one point you are going to loose Sophie and it's going to kill you emotionally I know it sounds harsh but you are a strong person and get through this

Emily:thank you Jake

He nodded I brought Ivan's stuff over to my house and put his stuff in my room

When Sophie walked in and Chance following while holding ruby

Chance:can you look after her em or you wanna sort Anthony out
Emily:I wanna do both I will do Anthony now
I walked to Anthony's room where he was cleaning which he never does so you know he's not okay

I sat on his bed and waited for him to speak
Anthony:do you want anything?
Emily:yeah I want to know if your okay
Anthony:I'm fine why wouldn't I be? I'm used to grieve it doesn't affect me
Emily:Anthony you don't have to act strong around me
Anthony:you don't want to hear about my problems your sick
Emily:that doesn't stop me from caring ruby needs you Anthony
Anthony:no she needs a mom that's what she needs she misses you
Sophie:I'm not her mom though
Anthony:she doesn't know that your the first person who cared for her protected her when I was grieving for rocky she doesn't know Rockys her mom you are basically her mother blood or not

That was true
Emily:Anthony stop
He wouldn't stop cleaning I got up and stood infront of him

He stopped but wouldn't look me in the eyes
Emily:look me in the eyes
Anthony:I can't
Emily:why?
Anthony:because I will break and I don't want to break especially not infront of you
Emily:Anthony im here to help you support you your my bestfriend I want to be here you can't be strong all the time

He looked me in the eyes and a tear rolled down his cheek he gave me a massive hug and cried into my shoulder

Anthony:he was one of my bestfriends he always gave me advice and support he always made sure I was happy and I didn't have to worry but little did I know he was hurting so badly and it's my fault that I couldn't see the signs

Emily:stop it's not your fault it's no ones fault he was unhappy the other half of him died and he was so so sad but he loved everyone you was like his big brother Anthony and you loved him like a brother he is so proud of you,you know when we had chats he used to say 'I'm so proud of Anthony being a dad a good dad and being there for ruby,he's grown as a person' that's his words he thought so much of you anthony

Anthony:really?
I nodded
Emily:he didn't kill himself to hurt us he was just tired of hurting and couldn't handle it anymore

I wiped Anthony's tears and my own we was sitting on the bed when I laid back he laid back as well
Anthony:he loved you Sophie like a little sister he is so proud that you've took ruby on as your own and you are your own leader and you try so hard you thought a lot of you to
Emily:I'm gonna miss him so much
Anthony:same

I wrapped my arm around Anthony's torso and put my head on his chest he wrapped his arms around me

Ever since I told him I loved him after we made out yesterday we hadn't spoken before we just did and I'm glad it's not awkward

I soon fell asleep I felt so ill and I hated

When I woke up I heard ruby screaming and Chance was talking talking to Anthony

I stretched as Anthony sat up
Chance:sorry it's just that I don't know what to do I've fed her changed her I think she misses Emily
Anthony:Emily
I sat up as he placed ruby in my hands then she calmed down
Chance:aye finally
Emily:I've missed you yeah I have

I kissed her cheek
Sophie:you need to take your medication you look sick as fuck

She passed me some water and the medication
Emily:I'm fine
Sophie:just take it
I took the medication
Emily:where's Tessa
Sophie:play group 

I nodded
Emily:well Ruby's asleep
Chance and Sophie left as Anthony put his arm around me

I put my head on his shoulder he put his head on mine

I'm glad I can make him feel better but I hate the fact how upset he was