My thoughts drown out the buzz of the television. Images flicker about but none had captured my attention. That black hair, red lips and brown eyes were all I could think about. My pizza was tasteless compared to her beauty.
That black hair that I desire greatly to caress.
That red lips that I so gently want to press mine on.
That hazel brown eyes that I desperately want to lose myself in.
I look around my apartment, dimly lit by the television. I used to like this minimalist feeling, uncluttered and cozy, but now it feels so depressing and empty. I reached for my cigarette pack and shook it, damn, only a stick left. I sigh as I walked towards the balcony while lighting up that last stick, blowing out the smoke and hopefully, the thought of her, away in the cold breeze of the night.
"BEEP BEEP BEEP"
I slapped the snooze button as I laid there, still unable to believe the beauty that I have come across yesterday, unable to believe that I just simply walked away without mustering up enough courage to introduce myself.
"If only I wasn't such a wuss, If I had a little more courage, I could have got to know her, maybe I would have gotton her number, or maybe even a..."
"BEEP BEEP BEPP"
My train of thought broken by the alarm again. I sat up and dragged myself to the toilet to wash up, as I looked up into the mirror, gazing into my own bloodshot eyes, " Huh, another day another dollar " I thought to myself while i hurriedly freshen up to prepare myself for work.
The familiar rumble of an empty stomach once again echoed in my ears. I look up the office "prison" walls, 8 P.M.
"Wow, how long have I been at it?" I turn to look at the amount of work piled upon my desk, and it looked like Mount Everest and the Himalayan Mountains had a baby and had decided to let me adopt it. "Bullshit" I muttered under my breath as I take my habitual " after this stick I am gonna get out of here" smoke break.
"What if I walked down the same path again, what are the odds that she would still be there?" I could feel myself getting excited at the thought. I might very well see her again, my heart pounding faster and harder. I dragged the last few puff, I mean cigarettes are relatively expensive and this is no reason to waste a good stick, and exhaled through my nose like a dragon.
"Yes I'm gonna gather every ounce of courage that a dragon has, and if any God or deity is watching over me, give me the chance to rest my mortal gaze upon that beauty again, I will step up and introduce myself. " The words resonated in my mind again and again. In the midst of all the excitement, I turned and said goodbye to all the zombies that have yet again stayed back in the office. Dead silence. Screw it, it doesn't matter. I could feel myself prancing as I walked out of the office door.
My eyes darted left and right like a hyperactive child who has consumed too much sugar. So many faces but none can compare to what I am desperately looking for. As I was nearing the very corner that I've seen her, I can feel my heart pounding against my chest harder and harder. "Is she there?" I squinted hard as though I could see through everyone to focus on at the exact spot where I had seen her.
"Is she there?"
"Is she there?"
"Is she there?"
And there she stood.
