Spring break so far is very uneventful. Today I just watched Black Mirror on Netflix, which is an amazing show btw. My friend Sydney recommended it to me. I love her, she's so nice. I can tell her anything. Last year I had math class with her and that was so fun, I miss being with her a lot ): but we still talk everyday. Hopefully we'll get to hangout soon.
I watched this one episode of Black Mirror and it was about this world and how it revolves on how people rate you out of five stars. Every time you looked at someone it would say like "Katie: 3.9" and all the people who were like 4.0+ were really snooty and stuck up. I can see our world turning into that. It would suck. I would have like a 2.7 or something. However I feel like our world is somewhat like that now. Except for the rating beside our head it's people giving their opinions about us to other people. That's how we make friends and enemies. I don't like it when people don't like me. Idk why, it's probably some deep-rooted insecurity thing or something.
I'm currently just sitting by my window listening to the traffic of the night. It's a full moon tonight so I can see all the buildings and stuff in front of my house, it's peaceful. During the summer I frequently go out at night and just sit and think and listen to music. The clouds are moving really fast, and chilly air is blowing into my room. Nights like these I start to feel alone, isolated. I suppose I do this to myself. But idk, I feel like I'm alone but at peace with it. Idk how to describe it. Brooding-ish I guess is how I'd describe it. But I don't have depressing thoughts. Well I guess I somewhat do. I just want to go. Go somewhere like on an adventure or something. There's this building in front of my house that has a ladder on the side of it, I've always wanted to go up on it, but I feel like since it's so old it would like break when I'm halfway up and I'd get like tetanus or something. I'll still probably do it sooner or later. Wouldn't that be cool though? Just to sit on top of a building at night with friends and just talk about life or something? Someone escape with me, I won't disappoint. I'm very entertaining and impulsive. I would say I'm definitely a risk taker. I'll do anything just for the hell of it, it'd probably make a good story too. I have a lot of good stories. I'll save them for when I spill what all me and my cousin Marcus have done.
Song recommendation: Daddy Issues by The Neighborhood
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Journal entries
Não FicçãoI heard some people do this and I've been meaning to get a journal but this is easier and doesn't smear and make my hand tired. This might just be another one of my whims, but I guess we'll see. These will literally just me putting my thoughts
