My Life, My Rules, My Thug

Chapter 18

8 months Later

J P.o.v

I've decided to write down my feelings because ever since my niecyypooh Tamera was born I've had a lot on my mind

'It hurts on the inside, but I still don't know why

He gives me all his love, but I still don't know why

Family is my life but I still don't know why

Gang is my story but I still don't know why

Don't know why I wake up every morning feeling the same way.

Ready to cry, and give up. Not the tough girl everyone thought

But I'm Confident , Cold-hearted, and Compassionate. Call me the three C's' I wrote down in my lil notebook.

Today I was going to pick up my nieceyypoohs Tamera and Jessica, and were going to have an Auntie day so Tracy and Lyza can have some time to them selves.

I walk in the bathroom and turn on the water so it's steaming, and plug in my phone to the speaker that plays throughout the house. I jump into the shower singing along with the music. I was in the shower for like 45 minutes until I got out. When I got out I combed out my wet hair and put it in a ponytail. Then I lotion my skin and put on a panty and a bra. I walked over to the closet and looked for something to wear. Nothing my closet needs to be renewed it's TRASH! Since I had no choice I decided on my black tights, my white and red coca cola muscle shirt and my fire red 3's. After I got dressed I applied light makeup just eyeliner and lipstick, and started on my hair. I put this new Mango moisturizing moose in my wet curly hair and pinned two twist on each side of my head.

I went downstairs grabbed my economy size pack of M&Ms, and headed straight to my second car. Yea that's right yah girl J got another car. It's a 2015 Escalade yea I like big cars, Hey I like my stuff big. I jump in the car and grab my phone to call Lyza.

Phone Convo

Me: Hello?

Lyza: yea

Me: I'm on my way for my NIECEYYPOOHS!!!!

Lyza: alrite

Me: send them outside in 10mins

Lyza: okay.

End of Phone Convo

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I pull up to Lyzas and start beeping the horn. Not no normal "beep beep" but I was downright making beats that I could probably get million dollar contracts for. Not giving a fuck who I was waking up or disturbing.

When Lyza and the girls finally came outside she put Tamera in her car seat an Jess jumped in the front seat.

"Jessica make sure you listen to auntie okay?" Lyza said

"Lyz shut the hell up my babies are in good hands and they always listen" I said causing Jess to laugh and Lyza putting up the middle finger

"Anyways, Jess make sure your behaving-" I rolled up the window in her face and drove off leaving her standing there and Jess still laughing.

"So what do my favorite nieces in the whole wide world wanna do today?" I said tickling Tamera in her car seat.

"Auntie I wanna see Rio 2!" Jess said as Tamera babbled something.

"I don't think Rio is still I'm the movies still so why don't we go to the mall" I said to them but mostly Jess

"Okay, but can we go to toys r us" Jess said a lil sad.

"Of course sweety, and I'll see if uncle Rel can find us Rio 2 so we can watch it while we eat dinner."

"Yay!" Jess said happily

I drove to the mall downtown cause it's so much bigger than the one in town. Once we got there I took Tamera out her seat and put her and my bag under the bottom. While Jess held on to the side. We walked in.

"Jess you hungry?" I asked

"TOYS R US! AUNTIEEE CAN WE GO PLEASEEE!" Jess screamed as she was practically pulling me into the store avoiding my question.

We were in there for about 45 minutes and ended up buying about 500$ in toys for the both of them.

Then we went to the Gucci store and I got them matching outfits, and I got two bags. Then I went to forever 21 and got some stuff for me and children's place for them. Then I stopped in WoodStack to get us all matching Jay's. I mean if they're my nieces they gotta be treated right, right? After that we left the mall and were headed home. I texted Rel to find Rio for Jess and I had planned on making Lasagna, string beans and baked chicken for dinner and maybe chocolate cake if I have the energy.

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I was in the kitchen cooking and Jess was in the living room playing with her toys and Rel was supposed to be watching Tamera but yet he was playing his ps4 while Tamera was sitting on his shoulders climbing on his head.

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Jahrel P.o.v

"Thanks baby, it smell mad good" I said kissing her as she sat my plate down. We were all sitting at the table J was feeding Tamera and me and Jess were eating.

"So what y'all brought me?" I ask

"Not a damn thing." J said back

"How you go shopping and not get your favorite Unc something?" I say to Jess as she starts laughing.

We finish eating and J brings Jess into the kitchen, I guess to make that cake. Which I don't know why she making cause my cake not gunna be ready till Jess and Tamera is sleep. But me and my boo Tamera is on the couch. She's laying on my chest and were watching Cartoons. Tamera was such a cute quiet lil baby, I loved being around her.

I don't know what happened but all I know is J woke me up from on the couch and there was no Tamera on my chest and Jess wasn't trailing behind J.

"Where's the girls?" I asked

"Well you and Tamera were knocked out so I put her to bed and Jess just fell asleep right next to her." J answered still standing over me with all those clothes on. Why she still had clothes on I don't know but as soon as she said they were sleep she should've been pulling off those shorts.

I stood up and grabbed her by her waist and kissed her neck then said "why you have so much clothes on still?" while feeling on her ass.

"No" J said releasing from my grip.

"JJJJJJJ!" I wined following her upstairs to our bedroom

"No Jahrel" she said again and I straddled her on the bed whispering "why?"

"Cause I know what you want and the bathroom is over there and you know where the lotion stays." she said coldly trying to come from under me.

" But I want some of you" I said carefully slipping my hands inside her pants and she started to squirm.

"Jahrel!" she whisper yelled

"But you know you want me to." I said back to her. she knew I was right, the way she would only let her moans escape when I stole kisses from her. I stole one last kiss and looked into her eyes as I saw she gave up, she reached up to me and whispered "Fuck Me" with a grin.