Learning to Fly (Sequel to Clipped Wings George Weasley love story)

Chapter 13 - I don't wan't to lose you

*George's POV*

"Guys, have any of you seen Alizandra? I haven't seen her all day and I'm getting worried..."

Just then the portrait hole opens, taking my attention off of Fred and Jinx, sat in front of the fire.

Phoenix walks in, looking like she's been crying. I hope she's alright.

"Phoenix, thank god, where have you been, I've been running around like a headless chicken looking for you..."

"George, I, I'm fine, I just, I, I still feel like it's all my fault"

My heart breaks every time I see her upset, it really does hurt. The only thing I can do, is be there for her.

I pull her into a hug and just hold her close. I wish I could just make all this pain go away, but it just seems to be getting worse and worse.

"Can I just ask you something, please? this has been playing on my mind for months now, what are you doing? you're always off on your own, and we never see you as much as we used to unless it's in lessons, you even missed the last Hogsmead trip with everyone. is everything alright?"

Phoe's expression drops, I can't tell if she's scared, upset or angry.

Now I feel like I've either said something wrong or crossed the line.

"I, I can't tell you, I'm sorry, I just can't"

She tries to push past me and walk towards the stairs.

But I grab her hand and pull her back causing her to look at me, an expression of anger turns to fear in a split second she turns around.

"Are you seeing someone else?"

Where did that come from?! I couldn't stop the words from flowing out of my mouth.

"No, I'm not seeing someone else! how could you think that?! I have been stabbed in the back one to many times, to know how much it hurts to know someone you loved and trusted cheated on you then forced you into something you didn't want to do! I would never treat you like that!"

I am defiantly regretting everything right now.

"If you can't trust me George then, then maybe we shouldn't be together"

Phoe says, her voice barley above a whisper.

I can hear my heart shattering into a million pieces, I don't want to lose her, not now, she's my everything.

I need to say something and quick.

"Alizandra please, I didn't mean what I said..."

"You sounded pretty convincing to me"

She says giving me a blank stare before once again walking out of the portrait hole.

I sigh in distress and run my fingered through my hair, then turn to look at Fred and Jinx.

Jinx just gives me a 'are you fucking stupid' look before briefly following Phoenix out of the common room.

Fred looks at me like 'you've really blown it this time'.

*Jinx's POV*

I have no idea what brought that on. Yeah we've all been wondering why Phoenix was off doing her own thing, but not once did any of us think she was seeing someone else.

She doesn't talk to anyone else other than us lot that's it.

I notice a timid little scarlet haired girl sitting beneath the old oak tree, over looking the lake.

"Phoenix, you alright?"

Nothing. Nothing but dead silence. Not even a tear, shines in her eyes.

She turns to look at me with ghostly dead eyes, as if she were dead on the inside.

Making her look empty almost.

"Why does he think that I'm seeing someone else? Why can't he just accept the fact that I like being alone every now and then, is there a crime against that?"

I don't know what to say to that. She's got a point, and she does like having her own space.

I think she deserves it after everything, first she lost her brother, then her brothers girlfriend stabbed her and he others in the back, and now she's lost someone who was best friends with her mother.

Sirius, James, Remus and Jennaveve were great friends when we were all younger, they treated us all like family.

"Can I ask, as your best friend, what have you been up to?"

Phoenix sighs in defeat, and starts explaining about her mother, the dream and the 'life saving' potion Jennaveve told her she would need in the future.

That explains why she's been acting wired but I don't know why she won't tell George.

She thinks he won't understand. That he might turn on her, not that he already has.

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*Phoenix's POV*

After a long talk between me and Jinx, we decide to go back to the common room.

Hopefully I won't be bombarded by people and questions.

As we walk through the castle we stumble across an empty class room, although it's empty at first glance but there's someone in there.

George is sat on a desk staring forward, I decide to tell him the truth, he deserves to know and I deserve an apology too.

"George I..."

I stop dead in my tracks at the sight of George kissing another girl. Oh my, it's Jesse, it thought I got rid of her last year.

"Phoenix, it's not what it looks like I promise..."

I think it's exactly what it looks like.

"I...how, how could you, after everything you accused me of...i, I can't even look at you"

I run our of the room just as George tries to explain himself.

I run straight back to lake and stop dead at the edge and cry my heart out.

A broken heart hurts. Why is this happening to me?

First Cedric passed.

Then Cho stabbed me and the DA in the back after everything.

Then George accuses me of cheating.

Then he goes and kisses another girl.

Jesse.

I give up, I can't take this much pain any longer.

This will never stop.

What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.

Calming my nerves and taking a deep breath.

I close my eyes and breath slowly, opening my eyes to the sight of the lake glistening in the distance.

The sun is setting on this day, tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning, nothing will hold me back.

I will avenge those who I love, and make those who betrayed me, wish they had never been born.