Learning to Fly (Sequel to Clipped Wings George Weasley love story)

Chapter 22 ~ A Christmas to Remember

Song Choice for this chapter is Avril Lavigne ~ When you're gone and Glee ~ I'll Stand by you

*Phoenix's POV*

I haven't slept at all well the past couple of weeks. I sent a letter to Iris, Rhys and Angelina explaining why Me and Jinx arn't back at school.

I hope they'll understand, couse I don't.

It's Christmas Day, 4:35am, I'm laying in bed on my side, staring into the darkness, listening to Fred, George and Jinx's gentle breathing echoing through the sheer silence throughout the burrow.

I can't take this anymore, I carfully get out of bed, trying not to wake George, just as I creep to the door I get a sudden thaught, although I wan't to be alone, I don't wan't anyone to wake up and worry that I'm gone.

I grab a spare piece of parchment and a pencil and scribble down a short note stating 'Couldn't sleep, I'll be in the front garden ~Phoenix'

I once again make my way out the door downstairs, trying not to wake anyone and take a step outside into the bitter cold air. I love the cold, I'm only wearing shorts, a sports bra and a fleece jumper while stood in the cold.

I stop in the middle of the feild and stare up at the stars, I'm not great at constialstions or anything like that, I just like staring at the different shapes and colours. I can tell a planet from a star, planets are brighter and bigger than stars.

''How can you see into my eye's, like open doors? Leading you down into my core, where I've become so numb...''

I begin singing quietly to myself, whispering the words sweetly and softly as I close my eyes and try to ignore the cold threatening to freeze my blood.

''...Whithout a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead, it back home...''

I breath in deeply, shaking due to the cold, I open my eyes and sing the chorus a little louder to myself.

''...Wake me up inside, Wake me up inside, Call my name and save me from the dark. Bid my blood to run, before I come undone, Save me from the Nothing I've become''

''You have a beautiful singing voice Phoe''

Holy fucking jesus christ, Fred you scared the living day light outta me!

''You scared the life outta me Fred, What're you doing up?''

I ask him, trying to calm my pulse from the sheer heart attack he just inflicted upon me.

''I could ask you the same thing''

Touché.

''I couldn't sleep, I haven't been sleeping very well for the past few weeks now.''

Fred walks towards me with a sympathetic look in his eye's. He gently wraps his arm around my waste, pulling me into a hug. I wrap my arms around his waste and berry my face into his chest, finding comfort and safety within his strong arms.

I feel like I'm 10 years old again. I feel really bad about how I reacted to Remus telling me about my mother, I shouldnt have just walked away.

''I'm not gonna stand here and pretend to know how you feel, but I will always be here if you need someone to fall back on, let alone George that is, I'm sure he'd be the first one you'd turn to anyway''

I look up at Fred and see all sympathy replaced by an expression I've only ever seen Cedric give me when I was 10, the day Mum never came back.

''We should get back to bed, We don't wan't to panic the others and it's getting colder and colder by the minuet''