For some reason everything that happens, I feel like it a sign. That you are going to come back but maybe I just over thinking it. It just everything that happens to me always add up you and I always end up next to you. But the thing is that ever time I end up next to you run away. I don't think that you realize that all you are doing is hurting me. It sometimes hurt so much that I fell like cutting my self again. But I told my mom and everyone that I was done with that shit. You know that I used to do that and you even saw me doing it but you just look at me. I know you didn't do anything because you didn't care. But it cool because I am done with that shit but it always going to be a part of my life no matter what I do. So the thing is that when I see you I don't know what to feel. I just decide to feel nothing and it not hard to feel nothing all you got to do is forget how to feel everything, or let someone take all your feel a way. That what I do when I am next to you and once you start to do it a lot. It just what you start to feel all the time even if I am not even close to you.I sometimes do get my feels back when something big happens but that really often. But I felt something when I got told that one of the teachers roasted you in the middle of class. So what happened is that you were yelling at a girl and the teacher told you out loud that ''Is that how you treed her no wonder you not with you no more''. I just going to make it clear that I never told him to say something. We never even talked about you. But he mention you once but all he said are you dating him. I just said no not no more and he asks why and I told him I didn't know he broke up with me. That what happens nothing else and I didn't know that he said that in still they told me and when they did, I started to laugh. I felt one second of happens and when just like everything else it went a way.
