S t i n g [2DOC]

~12~

"I need more than this."

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Murdoc's POV:

It felt like all of the sweet embraces and affection was not enough for him. I'd given him my all, but 2D was one greedy kid. I care about him, but he never seems happy with the way things are- always hungry for more. (And not in the sexual way either. I wouldn't mind if he wanted more sex!)

But no. It's quite the opposite actually! He wants a stronger sense of closeness and I don't know how to give that to him. The only thing we've done in our relationships is have sex, so I can understand his concern. He's not sure we can last without it, so I want to prove him wrong.

I'm sure there's loads of other things we can do together anyway.

2D suggested a challenge:
One week. No love making.

I thought it'd be easy at first, but it isn't. It really, really isn't. It turns out that it just leads to more complications.

I guess that's why you don't try and fix things that aren't broken.

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2D's POV:

Murdoc entered my room hesitantly. After reluctantly accepting my challenge, he was unsure of how to act around me now. It was like he was almost uncomfortable, which is far from what I hoped for.

"What up?" I ushered him to speak, but he only uttered a dull response before silence settled in the room.

"So..." I eventually pierced the silence.

"...So..." He repeated, only making things more awkward.

I sighed deeply.

"Muds... This isn't what I wanted. I wanted to feel close to you without relying on sex, but instead I just feel distant. You're acting like a stranger." I shared my concerns and he sighed too.

"I know, I know. I just don't know what else to do." He shrugged.

Is this it? Was the love between us just a way to relieve sexual tension?

"Muds... Did you ever even love me or was I just a toy for you to use at your disposal?"

He was quiet.

Are you fucking kidding me?

After all of this?

"Of course not." He responded after a long moment of hesitation.

"That's it." I hissed at him.

"Wha-"

"-I don't love you anymore." I spat out the words like they were leaving a bad taste in my mouth. How could I possibly love someone if they couldn't return that feeling?

It was a split second of anger. That's all it took to say the unforgivable.

I was so used to getting mad and snapping and Murdoc, and then waiting for him to make it up to me.

However, this time the fault was entirely on my part. I told him that I didn't love him just because he was feeling uncomfortable. I was projecting all of my insecurities onto him just like he'd done to me long in the past.

After letting those words linger in the room for a moment, I almost wanted to take them all back because the look that Murdoc gave me was even more painful than how I felt.

Why was I constantly grasping for something I couldn't have? I couldn't just be happy in the relationship when things were going perfectly fine. I just had to want more and more until-

Destruction.

The silence was deafening. I could scarcely hear myself think.

"Muds... I-"

"-You know what? Forget it! I've tried so hard to be something that I'm not. I've tried to change for you, but you can just fuck off. I'm not doing this anymore. I am who I am and if you can't accept my flaws then you don't deserve to be with me anyway!" He ranted passionately.

"It's not that-"

"-I don't care what it is. You can't blame me for feeling uncomfortable or distant. I'm a fucking human being. I'm not perfect and I have emotions, you know? I'm through with this- clearly you don't understand me as well as I'd hoped anyway." He poured out all of his feelings before turning abruptly on his heel and leaving.

I felt sick to my stomach as the truth hung heavy in the air, creating a hot atmosphere. It felt like everything was collapsing around me.

I heard myself whimpering as he left. Quietly sobbing the words, "I'm sorry" but making no attempt to stop him from leaving. The damage was already done.

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Murdoc's POV:

It stung worse than a swing to the jaw. Those five words, "I don't love you anymore".

It kept replaying in my mind even after I'd lost my patience and stormed out. Where I was going was still a mystery even to me. All of my possessions were in my shared place with 2D- should I really just leave everything behind?

The only thing I had was my wallet and the keys to my car (not the jeep unfortunately), but it was good enough. The mileage was okay and now was as good a time as any to start fresh.

Goodbye, Faceache. You've misunderstood me, you've loved me and even hated me.

But I don't hate you, despite how it might appear. I don't think I could ever bring myself to hate you. You've been the only person who truly, sincerely cared about me and that means more to me than all of the physical touches and complicated stuff.

I love you, but it's about time that I leave you.

Thank you for all the difficult and wonderful times we've had together.

I'm a selfish person, so I hope you're crying now that I'm gone. I hope you feel as empty as I do. I hope you compare all of your future lovers to me, because you'll never find someone like me again... Whether that's a good thing or not, I don't know.

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A/N : Thank you so much for 1k reads. I feel so blessed omg-

I don't know why people are reading, but I'm grateful that you are. <3

Sorry this update was short in comparison to the other chapters. Idk when the next update will be, but thanks for sticking around.

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Do you guys think that they should get back together, or are they better off going their separate ways?

Their relationship honestly feels like a ticking time bomb just waiting to go off... Maybe if 2D admits his wrongdoings then he can repair the relationship? Or maybe not.

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