clementine | lucas jade zumann [✓]

30.little talks

˗ˏ clementineˎˊ˗

i was sitting alone in the park. lucas wanted to meet me in person, he wanted to talk about something important apparently. my stomach was turning, my heart beat was faster than a rabbit, i felt like i was going to be sick.

my mind raced with the worst thoughts. that i finally found something beautiful , but i may loose it because i lied. in the moment, it was anything but funny. i couldn't find anything to calm my nerves.

but everything came to a halt when he sat down next to me. there was no greeting, no hug, no kiss, there was nothing between us. just tension. he was holding two drinks, one was handed to me. i sipped it, it was hot chocolate. my favourite. i don't know if it was a good sign.

"so..." lucas said as we both stared forwards, towards the duck filled pond.

"so... i guess i have some extra explaining to do." i said nervously, putting my cup on the bench, on the side opposite of lucas.

he sighed, "i really think you do, but only if you're ready to open up."

"i am, with you at least." i said still nervous, i don't know why he wanted to meet me in a public situation, about something important.

"go ahead, i'm ready to listen, tell me everything." lucas said, he didn't move from his seat. he didn't show any physical signs of affection. this isn't going to be okay.

i took in a deep breath, preparing myself for the worst, "my names not clementine. the only people who knew that were my family, they're the only ones who understood what i was going through. i wanted to tell you, i've always wanted to tell you. since the day we met, i wanted to tell you because you have this presence, a presence that gives me comfort, like i could trust you from the moment i met you. i'm sorry that it took so long to let it out, and that you learned from an instagram post. i should of told you first, i'm so sorry lucas, we built a relationship on top of a lie. i can understand if you don't want to be apart of it anymore. i'm a horrible person."

"it's alright, you were scared of what my reaction would be. and you're not a horrible person, you did what was best for you," lucas reached over and grabbed my hand gently, "you're passionate, caring, and absolutely wonderful," i looked up at him and he smiled before i looked back down, "and that's why i love you."

i looked up at him, my heart skipped a beat, my stomach dropped, i lost all feeling in my body. this wasn't what i expected, it was what i dreamed of.

"i love you, clementine winters."

i smiled, "i love you, lucas zumann."

he leaned towards me, and i leaned towards him. like two magnets, we pulled closer together before kissing, it was soft but filled with love. i love him. he loves me. he pulled away, and i did as well.

"maybe i can call you c.j from now on," lucas smiled, "you know, short for clementine-james."

"i like that," i smiled while nodding, "i like that a lot."

"good, because i like it as well." lucas smiles before pulling me into his side, hugging me closer to him. i hugged him back and smiled.

all of my bad thoughts were false, i was completely wrong. it's great that i was wrong.

sooooooooo, this is the first time they've said "i love you" to each other. personally, saying "i love you" is a huge deal to me, and it takes time to develop love, and they developed it. and i'm squealing they're so soft and cute. love you all, have a fantastic day❤️

and a happy birthday to sadie! aka reagan

also i want reagan to be in the story more, give me some ideas on how to incorporate more events for her to be apart of