Babysitting Skylynn Grier

Chapter Sixteen

*Nash's POV*

"Just breathe baby, breathe." I kiss her neck and cheek trying my best to help her breathe. Never have I felt so useless. So hopeless. It felt like a part of my heart was ripped out of my chest and broken up into hundreds of pieces. I've never felt the way I do about her than anyone I've met. And that seems to be the case for every single thing. She's the most caring. The most beautiful. The most loving. The smartest. Everything. And that's what she means to me. Everything. And it's an amazing feeling. And it's also terrifying. The thought and the feeling that I had lost her. I wouldn't know what to do. My stomach was churning and I felt like I was going to throw up. I couldn't see and couldn't stop crying. Izzy was screaming and crying. Sarah... Sarah means everything to me.

"I'm good, I'm good." She breathes in shakily. I grab the water bottle off the ground and unscrew the cap, holding it up to her lips. She gingerly grabs it and takes small sips. "Thank you," she says after screwing the cap back on. Kissing her on the forehead and rubbing her back I whisper that everything is going to be okay. "How long was I out for?" Sarah whispers.

I look at her nervously, and she looks at me patiently. "A couple hours?" Her eyebrows slightly raise knowing that that wasn't the truth. I sigh and continue to rub the small of her back. "Maybe five hours, maybe six. I wasn't looking at the clock. I was watching you and then fell asleep." A small O formed from her pink lips, and I smile.

"I'm sorry for scaring you both, but it means the world to me that the two of you stayed by my side. And I definitely needed that sleep. I didn't take any pit stops while the two of you slept. I wanted to get here as soon as possible. However now thinking about it I probably should have to get food for us." She looks down as if she's ashamed of her actions. I chuckle quietly, and Izzy side hugs Sarah. "I love you guys," is what she manages to get out before sobbing. Izzy squeezes her tightly and I kiss away her tears.

"We love you too, Sarah. We always will. No matter what. Doesn't matter where we are, if there's distance or if we're right next to each other. There is no question that Izzy and I would stand by your side during a hard or dark time. And we sure as heck will be there during the good times." I cover her head in kisses. Small smiles form on her lips when she's suppressing her sobs. "It's okay to cry. It just means you've been strong for a long time. Crying isn't a bad thing, I wish I was able to cry..." I suck in a sharp breath pushing back the memories of where I wish I did cry. The only time I felt comfortable enough to cry in front of another person was outside this cabin. Letting those bottled tears come out felt amazing. Even though the moments following that conversation were horrifying. The fact that she was scared of me because of the look I gave her, I feel horrible, it's a gut wrenching feeling.I need to talk to her about it in private, it's something that I need to get off of my chest. Even if it may seem as a small thing at the moment, I know that me keeping it to myself is only going to effect my mood and the way I act around Sarah and Izzy. And not in a good way. 

Sarah yawns and breaks my train of thought. "Hey, would it be okay if I go lay down on an actual bed? As much as I love the two of you, this couch isn't the best place to sleep." Stretching out my legs I get ready to get off of the couch, Sarah reaches over to hold my hand but starts coughing and grabs her chest. I quickly get up to get the inhaler that was on the far end of the coffee table. Shaking it before handing it to her, my heartbeat starts to pick up. She presses down on the tube and inhales deeply. Sarah holds her breath for ten seconds before repeating it again. "I'm okay," she coughs a little bit and sits up straight. "I choked on my own saliva..." She scratches the back of her head and looks over at me and I laugh.

"Of course," I continue to laugh as I take her free hand and help her up off of the couch and around the coffee table. "Here, you lead the way and I'll follow you." She grabs both of my hands and places them on her sides. Leading me through the kitchen and past a few doors she turns left and then right into a fairly large room. I lift up the covers and she sits on the edge.

"Thank you, again." She smiles, kissing each of my hands softly. She swings her legs over and lays her head down on the pile of pillows.

"You're welcome, sweet dreams my love." I kiss her softly.

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UPDATED: SORRY LOL, thank you @beach24xox for being active and being a great friend.

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