YOURS - A Darshan Raval Fanfiction

Distance

The next morning I wake up early checking if I've taken everything. Darshan is still asleep probably. I don't wake him up, he needs some rest considering he has recording tonight and before that he'll have to go to a  production house for some work.

I go downstairs and make some breakfast. Well, I make pasta including tea because making anything else isn't my thing. When finished I bring them to Darshan's room.

He's still asleep. I keep the tray on the bedside table and look at him. He's sleeping in a childlike way. One hand on his chest and another one over his head. Even in sleep his face glows like it's radiating light. He looks beautiful, more beautiful than ever. Trust me, no perfectly dressed up man could come closer to this beauty.

I'd give anything away in a heartbeat to have this kinda morning everyday. I love to see him raw and simple more than dressed up in blazer or anything else. It's not that he doesn't look breathtaking in them but it's just when he's in just a homely Tshirt and trouser he looks... well, I don't know what the adjective should be!

But this reminds me I don't love him for which place he is in now or the status he has now, I love him for what he is now. I have seen the growth in these years, I've known the struggle.

When he passed sleepless nights trying to make something, a melody. Or when he couldn't sleep thinking whether tomorrow will be as good as today or it's just a dream, in that phase where he got so much love in a short while.

I assured him once that 'this is just the beginning and your tomorrow will shine brighter than today. Your tomorrow has millions love if you have thousands today'. And it happened.

After Raw Star and the struggling phase, he came where he deserves to be. He has millions' love today, millions of hearts beating for him, millions of faces smiling because of his smile. He deserves it all and if he asks me today that same question whether his tomorrow is brighter, I'll answer him the same.

Because this boy deserves every peak of this universe. He deserves billion more people's love. Because you don't find people giving their everything, sacrificing their everything for others everyday. The much hard work he does for music and for the people who loves him, I'd say, he returns it just as much they give it to him.

He has earned that, with his passion and hard work. He's grown up a lot, as in career and a person as well. He's become more matured and his view towards life is something I cherish. It's hard to find someone so positive and determined like him.

He stirs on his bed and I come out of my trance. "Darsh, wake up! Your breakfast is ready", I call. He opens his one eye and mumbles 'later' & goes back to sleep. I knew I'd have to work harder to wake him up!

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"Are you sure you don't want me to drop you to the airport?", he asks concerned. "Yes, I'm! Now don't be so tensed. I'll be fine", I assure him again before getting out of the main door. I stop and turn back to him.
"So... that's it. Take care, haan! & please have food on time at least", I say him. "You're behaving like mom now!", he says rolling his eyes. I stand there unsure what to do.
This is hard! Harder than I thought. I can't bring myself to say goodbye but I know I've to do it.

He holds my chin and make myself look at his face. "I'll visit you soon. Don't be sad", he says & that was it! My eyes get glossy and I hold back my tears. I hug him, tighter & inhale to take in his scent. I want to hold as much of him as possible.
I wish I wouldn't have to exhale. I loosen my grip and step away. Staring at his eyes I say, "bye". But it came more as a whisper. He smiles softly and I turn.

Each step I take away from him makes it feel like thousands. And I realize how far we are. I will never be able to take the place of that part of his heart the way he has crawled into mine.

The cab leaves his pavement and I think, sitting in the backseat, that destiny plays smooth. You can see the person in front of your eyes but can't have him. Seems like there are few steps between you both but the invisible infinite steps will always keep you away, no matter how much you try to close the distance.

Some things are just not meant for you. Some happiness are not yours and some persons, well, they are better to be left afar.