YOURS - A Darshan Raval Fanfiction

Yours - The Last Chapter

Hey Darsh,

Writing for you after so long. There are some things which I can't say you face to face but it's a relief to be able to write them down though it'll never reach to you.
You know, right now I feel so defeated, so lost & devastated. I've never wanted something for me in this life except one precious thing. And that's You. I've never wanted anyone so desperately before you. At one phase I used to recite your name like a prayer. You were my only dream, my sole destination.

I wanted to be beside you like your shade, always holding you; protecting you; having a share of your pain and sorrow. I'm glad in some cases I could.
You know, every time I saw you smiling That smile, where your face lits up, your eyes shine bright and your body shakes, I wanted to hide you somewhere deep inside me.
Where no pain, no fear, Nothing could reach you and fade that smile of yours.

I wanted to be the shield which every pain would have to cross before reaching you. Every time I saw you in pain, suffering, I wanted to take that away; replacing that with my share of happiness.

You don't even know how many nights I've spent thinking about you, thinking what you might be doing at that moment, whether you're happy or not; praying for you or just shedding tears thinking about this day when I'll have to lose you to someone else. And see, my fear is standing right in front of me threatening to swallow me.

Right now everything seems so painful. Everything. Even breathing. I feel so empty but there's this heavy thing that's nagging inside me. I just want to hold you for a while. I just want to feel your embrace and get rid of this pain. Your hugs are magical. They always managed to make my pain go away no matter in which situation I was in.
Then can you make this also go away? Please? I can't take it anymore, trust me. I can't.

I can't decipher why I'm shaking like this and why I'm unable to stop these streaming tears. It wasn't meant to be like this, right? I was supposed to be stronger and smile by seeing you happy with her, not turn into this emotional wreck. Then why can't I just accept the reality and smile back towards you?

Why doesn't this throbbing pain inside me stop? Why do I feel so broken? Why do I feel like something inside me is dead? Why do I feel like I won't be able to smile genuinely ever again? Why do I feel like I'm drowning? Why do I feel so unworthy and fragile? Can you answer me? Can you cure this broken me with your that smile now?

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for being like this! I thought I've learnt to control my feelings and tears. I thought I've become unbreakable after everything. But all it take for you is one moment to break me, shattering into pieces. I don't blame you. It had to happen. We were made to break.

I just wish to be able to smile at everyone and keep moving forward, being me again. I won't be able to erase the love for you from my heart ever but I don't want to lose myself either. Make me whole again, Darsh.
Stay Happy with your new life and partner. Forgive me for being this weak. I will always love you with the last shred of my being. Even the last piece of my heart will echo your name even though it's broken for you. You were never mine, you can never be. But I am yours, hamesha ke liye.

Solely Yours,
Tansh

                                               ●THE END●

A/N - What's up y'all beautiful people? So this is the end of this story. I hope you like it so far. This story is so close to my heart. And I felt so many things while writing it. I hope it reaches to your heart as well.
Do let me know how you feel about the story & if you liked it or not. Lots of love.

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