wrong send - hyunjin + seungmin

13

"WHO was that girl again?" seungmin asked hyunjin as he placed a plate of pancakes in between the both of them.

"jeon soojin, she's the daughter of one of my father's business mates. she came here to help me fix some papers dad told me to." hyunjin said.

"oh. you could've told me to help you."

"do you even know how to do stuff with papers?"

"do you trust me or not?"

"actually, i thought you'd come home later than i expected."

"do you think i don't care about you?"

"it's not like that, it's just..." hyunjin paused. "i thought you cared about minho's family more."

"hyunjin, you're making that an excuse now?"

"oh please shut up, seungmin. we all know that you want a kid."

"i don't. i actually don't care if i get a kid or not as long as i'm with you, hyunjin. but if you want a kid then you can spend your life with that soojin."

"you're right. i should spend my life with someone who could give me what i want."

seungmin dropped his fork and stood up. "are you serious, hyunjin?!" he yelled at him.

"hey, you said it yourself. in my defense, you're the jealous one here."

"i'm not jealous, hyunjin. i'm trying to save our relationship."

"did we even have one?"

"hyunjin, what are you saying?"

"seungmin, i don't know how much you love me but i don't know actually."

"what the fuck do you mean by you don't know how much i love you?! i--"

"i want a girl. i need a girl. not a gay." hyunjin said as he got up from his seat and looked at seungmin directly in the eyes.

seungmin felt water roll down his cheeks, which was actually tears. his once open hands became shaking fists. 

"look, it wasn't me who started this relationship. it was you who asked, it was me who answered. it's both of our fault. we forced the universe and made the others convince that were made for each other." seungmin said camly even though tears were running down his face already.

hyunjin looked down. "i guess i could say that's true."

seungmin shook his head and wiped his tears before stomping his way out of the apartment. he didn't care who or what was on his way, just just walked straight forward.

as he wiped the tears away and tried to make new tears coming out, he thought of hyunjin. then he just sat on one of the corners of the streets and literally had a mental breakdown.

some passerbys looked at him. others asked if he was okay, others teased him. but he honestly didn't care. he was confused why hyunjin would say such a thing all of a sudden.

"was i not good enough? what did i do? am i ugly? did i smell? if i did, he could've just told me, right? b-but why? i-i don't understand at all." seungmin said as he slammed his fists on the table and continued crying.

back when seungmin was still on the streets, seunghee passed by fortunately. she was actually going to visit seungmin and hyunjin.

"i knew something like this would happen." seunghee whispered to herself but seungmin heard it.

"you could've warned me."

"seungmin, it would've been obvious to you if he's cheating or not. you said that he's been receiving phone calls from a unknown person lately so why didn't you ask him who it was?"

"i did ask him, he just didn't told me."

"there are better people than him out there, seungmin. you better get yourself a girlfriend. honestly, you're too handsome to be gay." seunghee said as she sat down in front of seungmin.

"everyone told me that. i'm tired of hearing it."

"we should go back to los angeles then."

seungmin let a tear drop as he closed his eyes. "i guess that's a good idea."

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this chapter is bad i'm sorry :(
i'm still in a not so good mood after what happened yesterday
honestly, hyunjin doesn't deserve to feel pain. nobody does.
they have no schedules today so i hope they use this day well and rest well. they shouldn't stress themselves out after a week full of shows and performances.
let's continue to love ALL STRAY KIDS MEMBERS equally and give them the attention they deserve ♡