Summer Days, Summer Nights (5SOS Fanfic)

chapter nineteen

Luke's POV

You don't know what you have until it's gone - that's what they told me. Did I even have her? Was she even mine? No.

Nonetheless, I couldn't help but blame my very own stupidity. Don't hate the player, hate the game - that's all I wanted to say to her. Though, no matter how many times I try to elaborate my thoughts and fight for myself, she tells me to shut the hell up and leave her alone.

I was too selfish and I was such an idiot. At first, why did I even let myself involve into this love triangle, right? Because I was in love with Megan.

Aubrey and I were together for years or months, I don't care. But why did I break up with her? Because I was in love with Megan.

Why did I bring her flowers after our Never Have I Ever game and arguement? Because I was in love with Megan.

I never knew what the hell was wrong with me. But for sure, I was the person who caused a huge dilemma between Calum and Megan. I had to fix it - but how do you fix a broken heart if it takes time to fix one?

A small memory of Megan and I flashed at the back of my mind. It was our last conversation when I was hanging out at the docks. Half of the sky was pitched black, but several colors blended until you could see one-eighth of the sun slowly rising.

"What are you doing here?" She asks. Her tone was kind of harsh - which was expected.

"We need to talk, Megan." I pleaded, looking up at her.

"Talk?" She scoffed for the briefest second. "Have you seen what you've done to me and Calum?"

You didn't have to remind me about that. "I didn't mean to." I said in a much quiet tone.

"You always say that Luke!" She fired back. "You break my heart, you apologize, you make up things and the cycle repeats. I'm so sick of this, and I'm so sick of you!"

That stung and I was so furious - not with her but with myself, so I stood up and left her alone leaving her by the docks.

I plopped down on the bed - in a hotel room which I will have to occupy until I fix the situation. Grabbing the remote control from the nightstand, I went channel surfing and I found myself smiling every minute at Ted and Barney - How I Met Your Mother.

I tried to cheer myself up. I tried to not focus on the problems I have for now. She's mad at me, Calum's beyond furious, and I was seriously mad at myself.

In the middle of the show I fell asleep and probably woke up to the annoying ringtone that was blasting in the room. I grabbed my phone from the night stand and stared at it for a few seconds. At first, I really wasn't sure if I am supposed to answer this call. Should I or should I not?

But I was too eager and I really wanted to fix things with her. Without any doubts or without overthinking, I answered it. "Hello?"

Silence greeted me.

"Say something, Megan." I said as tears were forming in my eyes. "I miss you so so much." I added.

"I need you," She whispers and broke down into tears. I opened my mouth to say something but then she hung up.

I need you.

I wasn't sure if she was drunk dialing me but I know that I should head over and check what's happening to her. But it bothered me, why is she calling me instead of Calum? Oh yeah, they broke up.

But if they broke up in just a matter of days, why wouldn't she seek help from Calum right?

I stood up to change into some simple tee and plain skinny jeans before grabbing my phone and scrolled through my contacts searching for Calum's name.