Dangerously Corrupted

3

Ellie P.O.V.

    I look up and see Newt and Gally right behind him I glance at Gally then I quickly look down again. ''I'm so sorry'' I whispered with tears forming in my eyes. ''I'm not mad I'm just confused but it's okay I'm just worried about you now'' Gally said calmly ''I'm sorry for everything I just...'' I said then I paused. Both of them looking at me to continue ''never mind'' I said still looking down ''you haven't been yourself lately ''Newt said softly. ''What if I don't know who myself is anymore?'' I said as tear started streaming down my face. I was ashamed and I felt weak i just wanted to run and run but where to...? In the maze? In the dead ends? I don't know and why did have to be them two I hurt both of them i pushed Newt and I played with Gally's heart.

  Now they definitely think you're insane good job!
  Your so stupid
   End your life
   Run into the maze
Climb the wall
  J U M P

As tears streamed down my face I couldn't hear anything Newt or Gally was telling me. Then Newt and Gally eyes left mine and looked at my wrist and started whispering to each other. I looked down at my wrist my sleeve was pulled up and there were the cuts that I have caused to myself. ''El....'' Newt whispered Gally just looked at me in shock I pulled down my sleeve quickly. Newt reached to touch me ''Don't touch me!'' I yelled as I scooted backwards away from them ''Calm down..'' Gally said calmly but was definitely worried and upset. ''Why would you do this?'' Newt whispered ''I just want to die Newt..'' I whispered back. ''Why?'' Gally asked ''I hate the glade, I hate the maze, I hate myself.... '' I said softly.

As I put my head in my hands I felt arms wrap around me I look to see Newt. ''Stay away from me I'm crazy...'' I said quietly ''me too...'' Newt whispered. ''I want to die'' I whispered back ''No... You don't'' Newt whispered ''I can't live here anymore I hate myself'' I said ''why?'' Newt asked. ''I'm a depressed freak I'm stupid and I don't understand how I feel I'm just like an hurricane I destroy everything I'm a mess'' I said quietly as I continued crying. ''No I see you as tough, beautiful, hilarious, and just bloody amazing'' Newt said ''how? I'm none of those I'm weak I can't fight against them'' I said. ''Them?'' Newt asked as he furrowed his eyebrows ''Never mind'' I said quickly ''No stop with the shucking never mind '' Newt said.

Now he's mad at you!
Go ahead tell him about me
He'll think your insane
He lied about what he said about you
All lies
Just like Gally's love for you
PUSH HIM!
Run in the maze
Don't listen to this liar he's going to break you more & more

I look at him in his brown chocolate eyes. ''Leave me alone Newt'' I said emotionless he was hurt but he didn't move he didn't say anything for a few minutes.''No'' Newt said looking in my blue eyes he was upset I was getting frustrated doesn't he see? I'm trying to protect him from me.

Tell him that you hate him!
You're trying to protect him? He's trying to protect you idiot
He's an idiot tell him to go bother someone else
Tell him that you're sorry for being such a mess
HE DOESNT LIKE YOU NO ONE DOES!

   ''WHAT DO YOU WANT!?'' I shout loudly. Newt looked at me curiously ''that wasn't to you'' I said quickly ''then who was it to Ellie?'' Newt asked ''Them'' I said then I got up and started walking away ''Ellie come back here'' Newt shouted as I started to run.