Dead Leaves | p.jm |

Your lies

Lately I feel stressed out. I havent visit (y/n) for a couple of weeks and I miss her so much. Like literally, I want to hit myself at the wall. I have already thought Momos words over and over again. I could even feel like I want to jump through the window building, or even kiss (y/--

"Mr. Park, you have a meeting this afternoon with Mr. Song"

My assistant, Songhyun, went through the door with a bunch of files in her hands. I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose.

"Cancel the meeting, I'm busy.." and she nod in understandment.

"And here is some files that needs your sign and confirmation" she added and was about to walk towards me with the files but I immediately stop her when I raised my palm.

"You take care of it.." I said this with a stern voice.

She just stood still and didnt say a word. Confused, I looked up to ask her what else does she wants but she interrupted me.

"Do you need a coffee?" She ask. I didnt reply to her for a second.

"Yes please.." And she nods then left without another word.

Sipping my coffee in silence, I think I'm a bit calm. Besides, its the afternoon and my work is almost done. After this I can just go back home and relax and watch Goblin.

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I cant take this anymore.

I left the coffee at the side of the table and grabbed my coat that is hung behind my chair. I walked out of my office and Songhyun that is typing something in the computer looked up at me with pure shock.

"Sir?" she called me but I just ignored her and told her to handle everything when I'm on my way out.

I hopped in my car and start the engine. I missed her so much. My head is going crazy right now and I cant stop myself from being apart from her for too long. (y/n) I cant do anything without you. Please, I wish you remember our happy moments before this but I want you to forget that one and only day when I did the biggest mistake in my life.

Its almost night but I didnt care, all that I care right now is that I want to at least see (y/n). Looking at her smile. Feeling her warmth.

I entered the ward room without even knocking on the door but I suddenly widened my eyes. The room was such a mess. The bed wasnt neat and tidy anymore. Pictures that is hung on the walls are now on the floor with broken glasses..

And her wish jar was shattered and popsicle sticks were scattered everywhere.

The room was so dark and I could only see a few things that is illuminated by the hospitals light. But I saw a familiar figure at the corner of the room. (y/n) was hugging her knees and was shaking a little. I walked towards her slowly but accidentally stepped on a broken piece of glass making a sound. She looked up at me.

"Jimin" her voice was silent and I can hear a little crack in her voice. She runs up to me and hugs my waist. She cried on my chest and I hugged her back.

"Shh.." I hushed her while stroking her hair softly.

After a couple of minutes comforting her, I pulled her towards the hospital bed.

"(Y/n) whats wrong?" I ask her in a gentle and comforting voice.

"I remembered..." She spoke.

"Remembered? Remember what? What did you remember?"

"Everything Jimin. Everything.." she holds both of my arms tightly.

Happy? Worried? Anxiety? Curious? Im so scared. This is the scariest feeling I have ever had in my entire life. Drops of sweats rolled down my forehead.

"I remembered how I got into this hospital, before any of this happened. Before I got into this condition" She looks at me with teary eyes. "I was so happy... I felt the love around me. But there was this one person.. That persons love for me was more deep, more special. The love was so familiar" she paused. And added "But soon it just crumbled in a blink of an eye. Bad things happened after that..."

"You.." She whispered in a raspy voice.

"Y- you gave me lies.. A fake love.. How could you?" Tears rolled down her cheeks.

"HOW COULD YOU!!!" She exclaimed and pushed me while hitting my chest.

"(Y/n)..."

"Shut up!"

"(Y/--"

"Go AWAY!!"

I tightly hold her wrist while she was struggling, I took this time to place my forehead on her right shoulder. This time my tears escaped from my eyes. I couldnt hold it in anymore. I need to let it all out. I sobbed quietly on her shoulder and her hospital clothe are now covered in my wet hot tears.

"I'm sorry..." I whispered.

"I'm so sorry..."

"Please forgive me. I know it was my fault. It was my mistake and I didnt know what has gotten into me. I couldnt control myself, but I know one thing for sure..." This time, I looked up at her. "It was a hell living without you..."

"After you were gone, I felt like Ive been walking around with guilt and sin on my shoulders. I stopped making contact with my close one and leave far away from here. To clear my mind about everything.. About you. I remembered my uncle saying to move on. I tried to move on and I did, it worked, my new friends that Taehyung and Jungkook saw me happy. They saw me as if I was enjoying my life without problems. But the truths behind my happiness is I couldnt move on.. On you.." I lastly added.

She went quite as if she was speechless. I inch close my face towards her until we collide our lips together.

Her lips..

I forgot how her lips felt against mine. But what I do know is that my heart was fluttering. My heart started to beat faster and the feeling felt so familiar. But it just happens when I'm around her only.

I pushed her gently on the bed so her back was on the mattress. I kissed my way down her jawline to her neck and she lets out a moan when I kissed her sweet spot on her neck. So I left her a red hickey there which she replies with a hiss.

I unbuttoned her hospital blouse slowly but she stopped me on the third button.

"The burn on my back.. My body.. Dont look..." She said this softly.

"Dont worry, your body is beautiful just the way it is" My voice was muffled when I make contact on her shoulder blades.

"But I'm afraid youll reject me because of my body.."

"Fine..."

"Ill kiss all the most beautiful part of your body..."

Oh my FUKIN GOODNESS PLEASE TELL ME IT WAS OKAY CAUSE IT WAS MY FIRST. I FELT SO FUCKING AWKWARD WRITING THIS SHIT.

HOE BLESS ME NOW!!

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