Dead Leaves | p.jm |

I Can't

I'm really tired for today and I feel like I have no mood on doing anything today. So, I was watching barbie with Minji and she was enjoying it. But while we were watching the movie, there was suddenly an uneasy feeling came at me. Should I go check on her?

I called the neighbour to come and help take care of Minji. After the neighbour came and took Minji I quickly took my jacket and left the house.

My ringtone went off. I looked at the ID caller and it was Lee Haerin. I immediately picked up the call.

"Hello?"

"Jimin, you have to come quick!" She screamed at the other line.

"Why? Whats wrong??"

"(Y/n) wont open the door and let me in! I'm worried for her! Please come quick!"

"Ok, I'm on my way" I ended the call.

A few hourse later, I arrived at the hospital and search for (y/n)s ward room. There I saw Haerin and a few other nurses trying their best to bang on the door loudly. When Haerin saw me she ran quickly towards me.

"Thank god youre here! (Y/n) wont open the door and she was making a ruckus in there! I'm worried Jimin.." Her voice started to crack.

"Ok, dont worry. Well figure something out" I assured her. I walked right infront of the wardroom and knock on the door but I felt hesitant for a bit but I knocked it anyways.

"(Y/n).."

There was no response. But there were more screams and falling objects.

"GO AWAY JIMIN!" She screams "FUCK OFF, I DONT WANT YOU HERE!"

"(Y/n), please... I know its my fault. But I saw you were happy with me these couples of weeks. Dont you want us to be happy again? Like from before?"

"GO AWAY! I DONT WANT YOU! ILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU! I HATE YOU!!!"

The words that I wish to never hear from her mouth again.

"But (Y/n), I LOVE YOU!" And there was dead silence. There were no more screamings or any shattering objects but I hear a little mumble from the other side of the room.

"I'm tired. I hate loving you again.."

I moved back and pushed the door with all my force and the door banged open. The room was a mess but there were no familiar figure in the room..

There was an open window..

Shit

I quickly ran infront of the window and looked down. Oh my god...

I hold on tightly on her right bloody hand while nurses and doctors sourrounded her, pushing her to god knows where. I can feel her weak pulse against my hands by her wrist.

"(Y/n) youll be ok right? Youll stay strong for me right??" She didnt even reply any word to me. She just looked up at the ceiling with empty eye.

When we almost reached the operation room, I kiss on the back of her hand gently "Stay strong". with that I let go off her weak hand. There was a slight blood on my lip but I didnt care. I hope she gets out alive.

_

I was sitting with my hands on my forehead. Sweat and tears rolled down on my cheeks. Its been almost two hours and shes still in there. I decided to call Taehyung but there was a message from him.

Taehyung: Come to my house.

I walked inside his house easily. Strange he didnt locked the doors.

"Tae?.." There was no voice responding me back. I walked to the living room and the TV wasnt shut down. I continued on walking through the halls and stopped at a small desk with a folded paper on it. It wrote 'Jimin'.

I unfold the paper and read it.

Jimin,

I never told you everything about my past life. I know you are quite curious sometimes because why am i being depressed this passed days. So heres the truth, I killed my father because he was beating my sister. Always got home drunk and lets go all of his stress on her. I was so pissed so, i killed him without thinking twice.

After that, i ran away from home and lose contact from everyone. Especially my sister. I was so lost I couldnt bear the loneliness around me. Until one day I found a baby in a box crying for its dear life. After I took her under my care I named her Kim Minji, the light of my hope and the light of my day to keep moving on. My burden and worries were all washed away thanks to her. And then you found me and provided me enough money to keep her happy but, i still felt the burden and im scared if she lived knowing that she was living with a murderer all her life. And my depression also got worst so... I decided to be with my mother on the clouds.

i hope youll keep your promise and take care of Minji for me. She could have a better life with you. I trust you in making her happy. Besides, you are my hyung.

And I will also hope you will keep on moving forward in your dark days too.

Thank you for everything and for all these years with you beside me Hyung. If it werent for you my life would be full of sin and i would still be living. But i guess i was wrong.

Good bye hyung.

A tear escaped my eye. Little by little loads of tears leaked out from my eye. I walked with wobbly feet and sat on a sofa with a TV in front of me.

The news was on and there was a news reporter talking about something until it mentioned suicide.

"Today, a person identified as Kim Taehyung, was found dead on the train trail at Korea Train Express. People and a few police suspects that it was attempt suicide but not until the police found any clues or answers, this case will still not yet confirmed and will still be investigated deeply by the police"

I was blanked and speechless. Everything happened so suddenly just like it happened two years ago, only it includes two people that I loved and cherished the most died. But (y/n) was not yet confirmed if she died or not.

I really hope not...

_

I drove back to the hospital. I walked in to the hospital entrance and saw Haerin talking with a police. Until she saw me, she looked at me for a while and ran towards me. She hugged me tightly and sobbed on my chest. I hugged her back with less effort.

"She couldnt make it.."

"Shes gone"

The world around me stopped. I didnt know what to do anymore. There was no words that could describe my feelings now. There was not also a tear came rolling down my cheeks. I felt like I was more blanker than paper.

I pushed Haerin back a little.

"Show me.."

She brought me to where the room when (y/n) was being operated awhile ago. I walked inside the operation room with Haerin still behind me. We stopped infront of a body that is closed with a white clean blanket. Haerin spoke from behind me "ill give you sometime alone in the room" with that she left me alone.

I felt hesitant to discover the person behind those blanket but I uncovered it anyways.

There, I see (y/n) with pale white skin sleeping for eternity. Silent sobs came out from my mouth.

"How could you.." I spoke quietly.

"I thought you forgave me that night when we were together. If you didnt forgive me, why did you let me? But no worries, I know you are in a better place where there is no any trace of my existence" I bring close my face towards hers. "I hope you will sleep peacefully from now on"

I ended with a soft kiss on her pale lips.

"Because I cant definitely move on from now on"