Warning this is longer then my usual chapters so I'm just warning you. Enjoy!!
Your POV
I decide to wear this dress because I thought it was cute and stylish and the colour matched my current mood. It's a black short dress with spaghetti straps and I'm wearing them with my gold high heals. I curl my hair put on some make up and I look in the mirror, then look at my arms. I slowly bring up my arms and hold them feeling all my scars having flashbacks of the abuse
Flashback
"You're worthless a despicable accuse for a human being. You don't deserve to be in this world you fat ogre! I would watch you die any day, here to make it quicker" Tears were rolling down my face as I felt a hard throbbing pain in my cheek, my mum slapped me hard around the face and she handed me a knife and walked out. I was left on my own but I was used to this by now but the words hurt me emotionally I can't handle this anymore! As more tears rolled down my cheeks I was a wreck. I took off my cardigan and slit a deep cut in my arm, I yelped in pain and the blood tricked down my arm.
End of flashback
I crumbled to the floor holding my arms and my knees to my chest weeping hard and long. All I could taste was my endless tears. "You did this, look at me. Look what I've become" I whisper to myself whilst having a break down. I haven't had one for many years and Yasmin always helped me calm down but she's not here now, I'm on my own.
I slowly get up and walk to the kitchen.
I open the draw
I pull out a knife
I put it to my arm
I'm about to cut until...
My phone goes off
I drop the knife and run over
It's from Jungkook
Hottest guy with best abs- Can't wait to see you tonight~ <3
I smile and wipe off my massacre I look at myself and agree I'm not stable to go to this party. I sit on the sofa and wrap myself in my blanket, I sit there for a while in silence taking deep breaths to steady myself. I thought to myself "I cant let this get to me anymore, I need to stop isolating myself and be happy." I got up and walked to the door as I'm heading out I grab my black bomber jacket and walk out feeling confident.
I walk up to their dorm and I'm automatically greeted by a smiling Jin "Hello, Jin right?" he nods "Holly right?" I let out a small chuckle and I realise how handsome he is "HOLLY" I look up to see Jimin run up to me "CHIMCHIM" he lifts me up and spins me around whilst jumping up and down making me laugh uncontrollably. He puts me down and I see Jungkook looking unbelievably handsome, he gives me a slight wave "Glad you made it"
"Yeah me too" I walk over to him and we're so close. Well we were close till Jhope runs right in the middle of us shouting and moaning, God knows what he's saying though. "Namjoon is not back yet so do you wanna chill in my room and wait?" I give a wide smile to Jungkook as he grabs my hand and guides me to his room "Don't get cum on the sheet I just washed them"
"Ew Suga don't, stop your disgusting!" I look at Jungkook cluelessly "You don't want to know, trust me"
Once we get into his room and I see games on the bed I point at them and look at him, he nods no and pats the spot next to him on the bed for me to sit "I want to get to know you so let's do ask each other questions" I nod in agreement he starts of with asking "Ok are you single?" I turn and look and him with my eyes squinted he turns back and softly punches my arm "Yah, answer the question"
"Ok, ok, yes I'm single. My turn! Ok let me see... oh! Who do you ship most in the band?" he looks in thought and says "Namjin" I look back in shock "Yep, I ship them, anyways my turn do you like my abs?" He questions whilst touching his abs over his shirt "What is wrong with you and these questions?!" I roll my eyes and face the other way. He shuffles beside me grabbing one of my hands and lifting my chin to face him, he lifts his shirt slightly and puts my hands on his abs. I immediately feel blood rush to my face as I start running my hand up and down his defined abs, he comes right up to my ear and whispers "Does that give you your answer?" He pulls away biting his lip, I pause and respond with "Next question" I pull my hand away still remaining eye contact with him.
