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Ever since that evening I haven't spoken to anyone. It's been a week. I know my siblings are getting annoyed at me, they didn't know what was going on but they were sympathetic at first as were my grandparents, I don't know why, it's not like Hope actually killed herself, she just tried, but that's what makes it hurt more. She tried to kill herself. She was so unhappy to the point where she just couldn't take it anymore and wanted die. That's the only thing that's been going round my head for the past week. I've tried to message her, ask how she is, but whenever it comes to sending the message I can't. I'm so angry and confused yet I want to be there and hug her and tell her that I'm here for her throughout it all, but I can't. I don't have the courage, which is ridiculous because I always tell her everything. I thought we always told each other everything, but I was wrong about that because whilst I was relaxing and being happy, she was killing herself.
Christmas is in 3 days. Usually I would be extremely excited and happy and I'm trying to be but I don't feel it. I don't have the energy to be happy. I have a crippling fear that my mum is going to call me down to talk again and she's going to tell me that Hope has tried again. All our memories she was so willing to throw away, to give up and just leave me. I don't want to lose my best friend. I wish I was there to stop her, make her feel loved, like she was for me.
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Hi, this is a really short chapter so sorry but this story is very painful for me to write so I'm trying to pace myself. I may add to this chapter in the future but right now I'm happy to publish it as it is. Remember to leave what you think in the comments. <3
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Non-FictionThe first time she did it was meant to be a time of happiness, Christmastime is about joy and being with your loved ones, she obviously didn't get the memo. The second time she did it I wasn't there to help her, yet she goes on as if nothing had hap...
