Take Me With You: Calum Hood Imagine

Take Me With You: Chapter 11

Logan and I got to the restaurant, sitting down with our menus long gone, food ordered , and placed on our table. I felt unbelievably guilty for how I was treating Logan due to my occupied thoughts. I could barely say anything for a long enough period of time without reverting back to thoughts of Calum. Wondering how that could have gone so much better, and what ways I wish it could have gone. How the events of last night should have turned out. Why couldn't he of kissed me. Why didn't he? When I fell asleep, why didn't he stay with me?

Will we always just be friends?

The thought brought a sigh out of my mouth as I spun the Alfredo noodles around my fork.

"Are you feeling any better?" Logan asked cautiously looking at me while twirling I continue to twirl my pasta.

"Yeah.. Yeah I'm good..." I lied making no returned eye contact, knowing he was referring to how Calum's and my conversation went.

Calum had no right to be criticizing me hanging out with Logan. Even if it's a date or not. So what if it's a date? What does he care. He hasn't asked me out. He's had months to ask me out, but does he take them no! I thought he'd finally do something when we were together last night, but nothing... I'm tired of waiting. I get that he has his career, but nothing would change. I'd support him just as much as I do now, if not even more! We'd spend time together when he's here with some free time or not on tour, and sometimes it'd be with the guys like it was before we were alone last night. Maybe he just doesn't want that anymore? Maybe his feelings for me changed....

My thoughts were interrupted when Logan spoke,"Is there.." He paused

"Is there?" I mimicked now looking him in the eye.

" Is there something between you two?" he questioned," You and Calum..."

"Uhh, no..." I said obviously not in a convincing tone dude to the look on his face," Seriously, there's nothing we're.... Just good friends."

"That's good to hear," He smiled at me with a croocked smile.

I smiled back, but something didn't feel right. I decided to just push the feeling away, and guessed it was just weird being on a date... When it's not Cal... I always thought I'd be with Calum.. But I guess things change, people change. They change when they need to, and I guess I need to change. Maybe Logan's a good change for me.

"Is it?" I say returning a cheeky smile.

"Well I hope you don't mind me saying. but you are a very beautiful girl,"

I giggled shyly," Heh, I don't think any girl would mind you saying that,"

"I mean it y/n.." he's eyes stare deeply into mineuntil the waiter came with check.

I laughed slightly as I looked at him knowing he was some what frustrated that the moment was ruined.. Although I was almost grateful. It didn't feel right. I didn't feel like I was the girl for him. Here I am, my mind saturated with thoughts of Calum, when he's a cute, sweet, amazing guy. But Calum's the one guy for me.. No matter how stupid, weird, and jealous he gets. If it's not him, it's not right.

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As soon as Logan dropped me off, I waited for him to drive away so I could go see Calum. I had to make it right even though I didn't think I was the one who should apologize. The entire journey there was tedious, constant red lights taking up more of my time. I drummed my thumbs on the steering wheel more than 1,000 times, or it least it felt like it. Music didn't help, either it made me sad, angry, or simply irritated, but silence gave me an increase in nerves. Soon I was finally finished with the over bearing car ride to their apartment. Even the elevator up was unnerving, and the boring music didn't help at all. Once the elevator doors opened I basically ran down the hallway, and banged on the door.

"y/n? What are you doing here?" Luke opens the door with nothing but sweats on and a tooth brush in his mouth while his hair was dripping wet.

"Hey Luke, I'm looking for Calum..."

"He hasn't shown up since he told you about us leaving."

"Wait what?" I yell in confusion," You're leaving?" I thought you guys had a week left before tour started back up!"

"We did," he stops while pulling out his toothbrush and gurgling the rest if the words trying to keep the remains of the toothpaste in his mouth," they had to make some arrangements to the tour so we have to go early."

I felt anger wash over me and I only wanted to scream. How could he not tell me this?! He'd rather argue about some other guy then to tell me he's leaving until sometime in November!

"I'm guessing he didn't tell you..." Luke said with worried look upon his face.

"No. No he didn't," I answered on the verge of tears.

"Do you want to come in and wait until he gets here?"

"No... I think it's best I go home..," I turn and head towards the elevatorafter I say goodbye to Luke.

Once I am confined by the elevator walls tears cascade down my face, and the breath in my lungs becomes harder to find.

How could he not tell me? Why didn't he tell me?  I wouldn't have turned away if he had just told me! I don't know if I can stand not telling him how I feel for that long... But I can't stand the fact he didn't tell me even more.