Love me 'till I'm me again - (Scott and Mitch Fanfiction)

Chapter 1 - Any of this

Soo,new fanfic.I really don't know what's this,but I'm kind of excited about it,I want to see what how it turns ou.You can check out my first fanfic,another Scomiche one ,Sleepless Storm,on my page then come back and compare the two.

I wanted to do something different.Tell me what is this maddness,should I keep going?Read,rate,comment (please?).Enjoy,love you <3

It was still early in the morning when Scott's obnoxious alarm went off.It kept ringing until eventually he sighed deeply from under the white covers and shut it off,rolling on his side.His eyes were still closed -if he would open them that would mean his day would start.He would have to put on another suit he hates,and go to a job he hates,and work like a dog for almost no money at his father's firm because 'it was his duty'.

He opened his eyes and squinted at the light filtered through the white curtains.He felt the weight of another person on the mattress and rolled back.He knew who would be laying there,in a deep slumber,hair all messy from sleeping ..in a perfect world.

Instead,it was 'just' his girlfriend.He looked at her for a second.She was snoring softly,sleeping in just one of Scott's shirt and underwear.Her beautiful  hair framed her face and her shirt had risen up slightly,showing a  bit of her stomach skin.Scott wanted to laugh because this was probably the dream of millions of men,waking up next to a model sleeping next to you,but this  certainly wasn't his dream - he didn't even want it.

He looked at the row of perfectly aligned suits.He thought about the law firm he was doing his internship at,a firm that one day was going to be his.He thought about the amount of work he put into it,the sleepless nights,the strict rules his father made him stuck by.He thought about how much of himself he had to deny,to the point where he didn;t recognize the person in the mirror anymore.The walls were caving in on him,and everyday it was getting harder and harder to breathe.It was all making him miserable.

He grunted as he was washing his teeth and looking in the mirror.For the 100th time,he wanted to break it into a million shards.And for the 100th time,he got ready murmuring the same words over and over again 'I don't want any of this,any of this,any of this ..'The only thing he did want,his best friend,Mitch,was on the other side of the town most of the time,living his life like it should be lived,going to music school,singing in an acapella group,laughing,going out,being honest with himself and the world around him.Scott sighed ..all of this,without him.

He tried to shake those silly thoughts out of his head.Be proper,be the best,don't fail everybody,he repeated to himself.Even if it makes you feel like this?A little voice questioned,trying to bring up images of a better future,dropping out on everything,moving in a little apartment with Mitch,burning all his suits.Even if,he reassured himself.

Scott entered the kitchen on his toes,trying his best not to wake Jo up.Even his apartment didn't feel like home.It was all white,minimalist,and expensive,the kind of expensive that is obnoxious,like its meant to be noticed.

Everywhere there were framed pictures of his girlfriend,in different sizes,mostly black and white.So everywhere he went he was reminded of the life he was served on a tray,already choreographed for him,with costumes that didn't fit him and lyrics he didn't write.There was one single picture of both of them in the living room.

They were just about to go to the Celine Spring Show when the picture was taken.Jo looked as flawless as ever,beaming with happiness.Scott was in one of his most expensive suits,which he hated passionately,and was pulling a half-smirk as his hand was hovering awkwardly over her waist.He looked like a put-together mess and she looked carved in marble.Like always.

Scott sighed deeply looking at the picture.He didn't want to spend too much time actually thinking about his life these days and his ..relationship.She was beautiful,and her eyes were sparkling,so why couldn't he just do the normal thing to do,and love her madly?Why couldn't his heart just settle on being with her and being genuine about it?