Love me 'till I'm me again - (Scott and Mitch Fanfiction)

Chapter 9 - Heat

Sorry if this is shitty,it was written while drunk

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And Mitch kisses him like there's no tomorrow,he raises himself on his toes and pulls him in closer and just kisses him again and again,and loses himself in what feels like everyhthing he'd dreamed of since forever ago.

And for a minute he forgets all that is wrong and weighs down on this moment,and just lets himself be surprised over how wonderful this feels,how right and natural.His heart swells at the thought that Scott will soon realize once again that it's wrong and probably run away,but for now they kiss and kiss and when they come up for air they can feel eachother smiling fondly against each other's lips.

They are both heavily breathing,and Scott is still holding on tight to Mitch,with his hands wrapped around his waist.They look eachother in the eye and Mitch is painfully ready for that 'I need to go' or 'This isn't right.'

Instead he sees Scott tilting his head and biting his bottom lip. Mitch's eyes light up when the blonde sighs and doesn't give any sign of leaving,he just breaths out  a hushed 'Wow.'

'I know.' Mitch replies and he smiles playfully because not everything has to be depressing and dark,they can take things lightly too.He doesn't know where they are and what they are doing,he just knows the person he's been in love with since forever ago kissed him back.

That feeling of floating doesn't last as long as he wished it did,because soon enough Mitch can't really look back at Scott,who's oblivious to his demons who won't seem to give him a rest;they keep asking questions,about what does this mean and how does he feel ;they keep replaying in his mind that horrid picture of Jo crying her eyes out and telling him she loves Scott too,not too many days ago.

So Mitch decides to take the plunge and after clearing his throat,ask cautiously.

'So,uh.How do you think she will feel about this?'

And suddenly it's freezing cold in the entire room and their hands aren't touching anymore,and his fingers are shaking.The blonde flinches and glances back with the eyes of a someone who's just been beaten with a stick. 'Who are you talking about?'

'Jo.Aren't you going to tell her about all this?'

Mitch's own words echo in his head an bounce of the walls,tearing them down.He can't look Scott in the eye,because he knows what he will find there :hesitation.It would hurt far too much for him to bear seeing,like his words had thorns he'd bled on.

'No,Mitch,I'm not ..I can't,I'm sorry.' And Mitch knows he deserves more than empty words and stale affection,he knows he should have more than weary feeling and unsure glances,but he can't help but want to shout 'love me,love me,love me' at the top of his lungs,as if he's not already that screaming those words silently,with every fibre in his body.He closes his eyes because he doesn't want Scott's words to ruin the most precious memory he has,but the words keep crashing over him like waves 'This wasn't suppose to happen,I apologies for not being able to tell you why,or how,but I just can't tell her anything.I,Mitch,I .. I just can't.'

The brunette runs his hands through his hair in frustrations and bites back with his loud words that have sharp edges he's already cut himself on 'Sometimes it snows in April,sometimes there's warm weather in the middle of December.Things that aren't suppose to happen,happen,Scott.That doesn't stop them,no matter how hard you deny them.'

Mitch stepped closer and took Scott's hand in his.His eyes were glazed with tears;deep inside,his heart was pounding faster and faster,while his mind was telling him to run,run and never come back,but ignorance is bliss.'I'm jealous,Scott.I'm jealous of the way she gets to run up to you and kiss you whenever.I'm jealous when she gets to trace her fingers through your hair,or call you babe,or make you laugh.And you can act all you want,but I know you don't love her like she loves you,maybe not even a little.'Mitch took a deep breath and continued 'Tell me this is wrong,and I'll go.Just one word.'

They were so close that Scott could feel Mitch's breath tingle his skin.As for him,he wasn't even breathing.'Tell me this doesn't feel right.'Mitch leaned down and kissed his neck,right next to his pulse ,sucking lightly on it.Scott didn't dare to move ever so slightly, trying to contain his emotions.

'Or this.' the brunette continued,kissing his jaw line,softly,like a breath of fresh air quickly leaving his skin.'Or this.' Their lips came together as one again,but this time they didn't crash,Mitch simply reminded him of his feelings,and the blonde lingered a bit by gently grabbing Mitch's face and deepening the kiss.'Say the word and I'll go,love.But you can't fool me.' Mitch ended by looking up at Scott.

His eyes were clear now,no storms,just light and hope and maybe even a bit of madness;Scott grabbed desperately on to Mitch's face,to his body,his arms tangling around him,his whole body a mess.'You want this.' Mitch murmured,but didn't stop him.He knew it was all wrong,but he let his bestfriend do whatever his broken mind and heart wanted - he kept kissing back even when they were backing away to his bedroom door.'Just say it.Say it already.' the brunette repeated like a hungry prayer,desperate for the acknowledgement that he wasn't the only one having his whole world turned upside down.

Scott's hands slid down his waist and brought him up - Mitch had his legs wrapped around Scott's waist and it felt all kinds of wonderful but also all kinds of wrong.It was,after all,cheating.His breath was hot and he could barely handle Scott's teasing kisses.He tilted his head back and looked him dead in the eye -so intensly he felt his look was going to burn his eyes.

Scott sighed,but eventually looked down and bit his lip,breathing heavily.'I want you' was all he managed to come up with,but for Mitch it was enough.Enough to know it wasn't all in his head.He lowered his hands,slowly,because they felt cold against the blonde's skin and he could feel him getting goosebumps,although he hoped it was because of him.They slid under his shirt and then down,down until Scott silenced a moan,and down until his response was satisfying enough for him.

'Fuck,Mitch.Stop.'

The brunette could tell by his eyes he didn;t really want him to stop -he bit his lip gently,just to let him know he was there.He spoke between kisses,slowly,just to make sure of his intentions - 'Do you really want me to.'

Suddenly they were lying on Mitch;s bed and he was climbing on top of his bestfriend,and clothes were flying everywhere.Chills travelled down his spine-slowly and painfully,making him get the full effect of havinf Scott's body move against his.Simply wanting him so bad wasn' t enough-he wanted to know it,to feel it.'No,I don't.Don't stop.'

Those simple words were enough for Mitch.He felt himself melt under the touch of Scott, because he held him like it was the only thing he'd ever knew how to do,the only thing he'd ever wanted to do.He didn't know if this was what love felt like -but Scott's name was always in his mind,in his mouth,in his veins.The thought of him echoed through his every bone and he could hear it with every touch of his fingertips,with every whisper Scott let out.It was wonderful,but it was so painful.So seductively painful.

So Mitch lost himself in Scott,and for a while,he just forgot.He forgot he is in love with his bestfriend,he forgot his bestfriend has a girlfriend.He just forgot.And lost himself in Scott.

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Scott lays still a few hours after in Mitch's bed.His mind is fogged and the memory of the best nigh of his life is darkened by a distinctive kind of pain and guilt.He doesn't regret anything,anything  but 5 words,words that might've ruined his friendship for life,words that will eat at his heart forever from now on,words said in the heat of the moment - words that seemed to make Mitch so  happy,it crushed him to take them back : 'I'll break up with her'

What Mitch didn't know was that he couldn't.It wasn't that he didn't want to,it wasn't that he wasn't brave enough to.He just couldn't. He had signed a contract,an actual,physical contract,that would ruin his life and potentially crush Mitch's heart.He was obliged not to break up with Jo,or else he'd lose everything.His firm,his career,his life- everything.

But Mitch couldn't know that.