Kaori.... I'm so sorry I couldn't save you..
That's it... I've stopped playing. The concert hall is silent, awed at the pure emotion in my playing. I hear clapping. I hear cheers. I hear the typical 'You're amazing!'. It doesn't matter anymore... what I saw Just moments ago... Kaori was playing with me. Is she dead? Why do I even have to ask... I give up... I'm sorry Kaori. I love you.
I finally get up and run off of the stage. I hear a spurt of commotion in the audience. I don't bother bowing. I just need to leave before someone sees me break. Hot tears stream down my face. My heart is shattering. I run past Emi and Aiza, ignoring the call of my name, and their desperate cries for me to stop.
I burst through the doors of the concert hall, startling those around me. 'Is he okay?', 'It looked like he was crying.', 'Did he loose? But the results aren't up yet.', 'Was that Arima?'. I hear people talking about me, whispering amongst themselves. Of course I didn't loose, that was my best performance yet, even so, why would I care about winning or losing? All I care about in this world is dead. I want to die... Please just let me die.
"Kousei! Listen to me! Stop running!" I hear a familiar voice yelling out to me
"Kousei, please, just slow down!" There's another one.
I snap out of my daze as Tsubaki and Watari catch up to me, and Tsu slaps me in the face. I don't react. I don't care. I dont feel the pain anymore.
"What the hell is wrong with you Kousei? You finished your music and stormed out! And what worse is you didn't even bow! That's way too out of character for you Kousei, you of all people know concert ettiquite!" Watari yells. Despite the harshness of his statment, there is genuine concern in his voice.
"Not to mention that you're bawling your eyes out! What happened out there? Your playing was better than ever, but I could tell you were devastated near the end! Just tell us what's going on, we're your best friends for goodness sake!" Screams Tsubaki.
I finally loose it. I break down completely. I am screaming, crying, my tears fall to the ground. I can't contain it anymore. Watari and Tsubaki suddenly crouch down on the ground next to me, and pull me into a hug.
"Just let it out." Tsu whispers, trying her best to comfort me.
"Let it all out."
