Cheater | 박지민

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❝My lip says "I am fine." But my eyes tells a different story, my heart sings a different tune, and my soul just weeps. ❞

39.8 kg

It read on the weighing scale. From 48kg to this, it's getting worse day by day ever since you cheated. I lost my appetite, not wanting to get out of the house to face the world, causing my facial color to become paler and soulless, my body grew weaker and weaker.

I took a bottle of pills from the cupboard, pouring two white rounded pills onto my palm. How long do I need to continue this? Why am I even still doing this? Staring at it, emotionless.

"Yah, babygirl. Get well soon, yeah? Then, we could finally go to the ice cream store which you really love." You smiled, patting me on the head, while I nodded, laying weakly on the bed, a damp cloth on my forehead.

"Call me when you need me." You leaned in and kissed me on the forehead, spreading warmth from your lips. Then you looked at me in the eye, which was full of comfort. " I love you. You know that right?"

"Of course, I know." That was when I could just trust you full heartedly, with no doubt. That was when our lives was perfect until you changed.

Sweet memories with you kept haunting me, always being able to make my heart ache. Again, my head started to feel heavy, my hands gets sweaty, I would have problems breathing due to the tears that were chocked in my throat. The scene before me grew pitch black, I couldn't feel anything, nor hear. And like that, I will be left on the cold floor, lifeless as I have fainted. Pills in my hands that I wasn't in time to take.

Those memories were toxic, complete lies. It was a sickness that no doctor could cure. The only cause of it was you.

This happened often to me ever since that day. As always, every time when I wake up, there was no one beside me. There was no you in sight. And every time, after I open my eyes, I never found a reason for me to continue living, to continue loving and fighting for you.

Always leaving a soul filled with disappointed for being able to breath again, only to get hurt.