This Love Makes Me Lose Control (Kaneki X Touka Fanfic){I'm a Ghoul In Love}

Dreams and Future

The whole world seemed so far away. I was alone. Alone with Touka. Alone in a space where the world below is moving without me, so quickly that if I try to grab it, it will just slip away.

I remember all those days when I first become a ghoul and... how much I wanted to die. It was so painful knowing that I was no longer who I was... or even what I was.

I thought 'who are you? What is wrong with me! I am an idiot for thinking I could have a normal life, with freinds and something I have always wanted since my mother died. I just wanted a normal family... I wanted to have a loving wife and adorable children to take care of. I wanted to do what my parents couldn't.

But at that point I thought. Wjat is the point on dreams if your dreams never become a reality! What is the point on trying to reach something that is forever out of sight! Well the answer is, or should I say who that was for me, it was none other than Touka. She was there everytime I fell and everytime I struggled to get back on my feet again. I would have lived a sad life as a ghoul, not knowing that I could of made a change in the world, that I could of been a somebody, not a nobody! Her temper, even her sadness may seem like thats normal for her, but what I see is a smile that is waiting to be set free. A smile that has been locked up for sooo long, that when it enters the word again, it will shine so brightly that everyone in the world could see it.

My thoughts were interrupted by Touka's quiet sobs. She tried to wipe away her tears, like she was afraid of showing her emotions to anyone, no one must see her weakness...

I hugged her in a tight embrace. "Why are you crying?"

"You... you don't feel the same way as I do do you?" She pushed me away rubbing her arm with her hand nervously, not giving me any eye contact.

"It is true that I don't love you as much as you love me," Her sobs grow louder, pain etched accross her face as the words flowed out of my mouth. "But, I know that I love you a hundred time more than you love me."

She looked but at me, her tears streamed down her face like rain falling from the sky, but warm and kind.

I grabed her shoulder and kissed her on the lips, she kissed back. Her warm tears fell on to my face, as my tears did the same to her. We stood there as the sun slide down below the earth to let the moon shine its white net apon the earth, to symbolize the start of the nights mysterious wonder.

But it was the start of our new beginning.

Touka and I walked back to the cafe only to be horded by everyone.

"Why didn'tyou come back earlier big brother? I was sooo worried!" Hinami said hugging me tightly.

"Well it seems that today went better than normal." Hide announced, standing up from hs chair. "Is there something you want to tell us Ka.Ne.Ki."

I glance over at Touka, who gives me a slight nodd. I smile and face everyone. I grab her hand, her fingers lacimg together with my own.

"Everyone. Toula and I have started Dating!"

Sorry for the long wait an short chapter. I am not well at the moment and I have camp tomorrow. I hope you all liked this chappter. I will be gettimg in to some more juicy stuff later on. I will also be rewriting the first chapter or 4 soon since it doesn't really fit with the story in the style it is writen.