What if ?

You're real

And there he was, Mickey Fucking Milkovich

A part of him wanted to believe that it was really him but another couldn't wrap his head around it. Isn't he supposed to be in Mexico ?

Maybe his meds aren't balanced anymore, and his brain decided to fuck with him.

"No, it's not him, you're just hallucinating" he wispers to himself while standing up to leave.

"Hey, what are you doing ?" he asks while taking his wrist "C'mon, sit."

"You're real ?" He says a little smile in his voice.

"Yea I'm real man." He rubs his neck.

"What are you doing here ? Why are you not in Mexico ? Did the cops caught you ? How are you not in jail ?"

"Hey, calm down." He sligtly laugh "I was in Mexico but they found me after two weeks there. So they put me back in the can but for some reason Sammy changed her statement so they dropped the charges and also the charges for escaping since they said I shouldn't have stayed that long inside in the first place."

"Oh, that's great !" he says eagerly "So, what are you doing here ?"

"Honestly, I just came here for a fuck."

"Oh...okay." He said looking dissapointed.

"Oh c'mon, you can't say that's not why you here either"

"Yea, you're right." He leans to his ear. "But you can't say that you want them as much as you want me." He hooks his finger on his belt, feeling his cock hardening. "So ? Tell me I'm right."

"Mmm." He closes his eyes felling Ian biting on his neck

"Say it."

"You're right." He gives but pulls away almost immediatly . "But this, us." He shows the space between both of theirs bodies "Can't happen." And with that, he left.

 Two glasses of vodka down.

Seeing Mickey really trow him off, he thought he will never get the chance to see him again. But seeing him reminded him of how much he loves him and how much he hurted him.

He goes down to the kitchen, trying to find another one but he finds Lips instead.

"Hey, you're home."

"Yea, I just came back from Sierra's, the commute was hell."Lip says sitting on a chair that is by the kitchen table.

"OH LIP GALLA...GHER IS IN LOVE, that's soooo cute." He said leaning into Lip's chair.

"No, wait, what ?""Are you okay, man ?" And now that he actually take a look at his brother he could clearly see that his eyes were red, like he's been crying. And with his slury speaking he's also pretty sure that he has been drinking. "You okay ?"

"Yea, Yea, I'm kay, it's just..." He stands there like he forgot what he wanted to say.

"C'mon  man, sit." He shows the chair next to him. And Ian sits in it.

"So what's happening ?"

"I miss him, so much." Ian felt the tears rolling down his eyes but couldn't be bothered to wash them away.

"Who ? Trevor ?" Trevor and Ian had broken up since he came from Mexico, nonetheless Ian had tried to be friend with him, but apparently Trevor already had too much friends.

"No, not that dick." Lip chuckles at the nickname.

"Mick."

"Mick, as in Mickey Milkovich ?" He asks even tough he already knew the answer.

"Yes." He mumbles.

"So, you miss him ? So that's why you've been so mopey lately ?"

"Yeppp." "I left him...and now he doesn't want me. Of course, he doesn't want me, I FUCKING LEFT HIM !" He can't seem to be able to breath anymore. Tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Hey, come here." Lip open up his arms for him and Ian acceptes his embrace.

"I just want to wake up with him, cook him breakfast, and suck his dick."

"Whoa, whoa, stop, I don't need to know about your weird sex life." Ian chuckles at that.

"It's not weird, it's normal." Ian smiles.

"Yea whatever..you and Mickey Milkovich is always gonna be weird to me." Ian smiles and let go of Lip. "You're better now ?"

"Yeah, yeah, I think I'm okay. I think I'm gonna go to bed." He stands and walks to the stairs.

"Hey, Ian." Ian turns to him. "You're gonna get him back."

"Thank you Lip."

Laying here on his bed, he couldn't do anything but think. Falling miserably at falling asleep

What if he went to Mexico with him ? Then maybe they would have been happy together.

He really shouldn't have left him there, all alone, abandoned, by Ian, again. He's really a terrible person. Of course he didn't want him.

He'll be lucky if he even gets Mickey to talk to him.

That's it he's gonna apologize to him. And then let him be, he deserves that much, he deserves better that Ian.