Quiet ¦ Hyungwonho

Chapter 19

Wonho's POV

And now everything was back to normal. Minhyuk still hasn't forgiven Shownu completely but I think he will soon. Kihyun is still trying to work out his friendship with Minhyuk but also all of us in general. Jooheon and Changkyun's relationship is just great. As for me and Hyungwon we both couldn't be happier for being together.

Today we both woke up at 9am in order to go to the graveyard. He was quiet all along, he wouldn't look up except for when we picked the flowers. He said his brother liked yellow tulips, they represented a "sunny smile" and he would always say that they make him happy. Then he just stopped talking again.

When we got there I saw him tearing up.

"Hey my brother. Happy birthday. I miss you like crazy. There is not one day that I won't think about you. I know you wouldn't want me to say that but I'm sorry. I still feel guilty sometimes but I've gotten better. Also, I'm sorry that I'm not visiting you a lot. It's just that my schedule is killing me. If you could see my work you would be so proud. Do you remember when you told me to find someone in my life who will never make me feel regret because I'm with them and will make me happy? He is that person" he said pointing at me and continued "Wonho or... Hoseok is an amazing person. He makes me so happy and when I'm with him I never wanna let go. He is always warm. He also has the most beautiful smile. I think these tulips represent his smile, his sunny smile. I really wanted you to meet him and if you were here I'm sure you would become great friends. I'm sure I'll come here more often. I love you" He said and got up. I didn't realize that I was crying too. I really love him a lot.

I brought him close to me and we left. He was smiling now, something I want to admire my whole life.

When we got home I received a message.

Unknown number: You didn't go to her one, did you? It must have been long since you did.

Me: What do you mean
and please just tell me who the
fuck are you

Unknown number: What is this way you're talking to me?

Me: Why would I talk politely to a stranger and someone who is threatening me?

Unknown number: Fine, it's you're choice, you should just know that you should have gone to her grave too.

Her grave? My mom's? How is this person anyway?! I have to find somehow. I don't know how or where but he threatened not only me but also Hyungwon. This can't keep happening.

Changkyun's POV

Today, the photoshoot was out of town and we had to stay for 3 days so the company booked a hotel. Of course I was staying in a room with Jooheon, Minhyuk with Shownu (even though Minhyuk didn't exactly agree), Hyungwon with Wonho and Kihyun with some staff.

We all decided to return to our rooms right after we finished the photoshoot because the boys said they were tired.

"Changkyun-ah, do you want to drink anything?" Jooheon asked me standing in front of the mini bar.

"Yeah, bring me some soda" I told him and he passed me the can of soda.

When we finished drinking we climbed on the bed and he started kissing me. Of course I kissed back. I can never get over the feeling I get when we are kissing. And then he moves to my neck and he kisses me, which sends shivers down my spine. And then he moved down my collarbone. I'm sure there is a trail of purple hickeys, which I'll have to hide tomorrow. And then he goes to take my shirt off but I stopped him.

"Babe, it's the 6th time you stop it here. And I can feel that you want that too. Please tell me what's bothering you." Jooheon said with the sweetest voice. Honestly, I'm so lucky to have someone like him.

"It's just really difficult for me to say it because I'm afraid that after this you'll feel disgusted. But I have to get it off of my chest." he said which made me confused but I let him continue "Jooheon, you won't be the first man who I'll have sex with." he told me which made me even more confused.

"Well, obviously you're 22. Of course you would have someone else at some point." I told him.

"I wish this was the reason. I wish I had lost my virginity to someone I liked. But no. When I was 16, I was out with my friends and all of my friends got drunk somehow but I didn't. And I had to return them to their houses. And I did, but when I was coming back to my house, at around 2am, someone grabbed my wrist and took me to a small alley where there was no one. And... H-he ra-raped me. I was only 16. U was screaming but it was 2am and in a dark alley so no one heard me nor found me. I went home and never told anyone about the whole story." as he finished he was crying.
"Now, if you want to leave me I will understand why."

"This is the stupidest thing you have ever said. I would never leave you, especially after what you just told me. Changkyun you're one of the most beautiful people I know inside and out. And I love you so so so much. I'm not even afraid to admit that. If I knew the man who did that he would probably be dead by now. I promise we'll have sex only when you feel comfortable. But I tell you that your body is so beautiful and you are not disgusting. This person was disgusting. You deserve nothing less than the best" that's when he came and hugged me so tight.

"I deserve you, because you are the best I could have" he told me and we just lied down cuddling until we both slept.

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Heyy. I'm sorry it took some time to update. It's just that lately I'm not in a very good mood. But writing makes me a little bit better. Yet, I am not sure this was a good update. I hope you enjoyed though.