Promise Me (Sequel to Learn To Love Again Camren Fanfic)

Goodbye

~Camila's POV~

-2 days later- ;)

(A/N: ha! ya'll thought you would find out what happened between camarry SO soon? That's not how it works with me ;) guess i'll just leave you guys in the closet until the big reveal ;) xoxo -A)

I can't believe what I did. I feel like such a dirty slut, none of the girls know except Dinah - which she flipped at me for and Dr. Van Der Woodsen (I only told her because I needed advice on how to handle my problem). It was such a mistake, I knew I'd regret it - I knew; but I did it anyway. Why? Because I can't seem to get her off my mind even after that night, I see her everywhere as a reminder of a guilt that can never be lifted. Harry and I haven't talked since that night, he tried calling several times but I never bother to answer. I don't wanna speak to him, or to anyone for that matter, every time I try to Lauren's voice echos through my head "Why Camila? Why? I thought you love me, how could you do this to me?". 

"Camila?" said Dinah walking into my room "Do you wanna talk about it? We can--" I cut her off "No Dinah, I don't wanna fucking talk about it. It was......Harry was a mistake. I did it because I wanted to forget, but every second of that night, there was not one moment where my mind didn't drift to her". "Oh Mila" the younger girl said and wrapped her arms around me in a warm and open hug "Lauren is looking down on you, she understands why you did it", "There is no exuse for my actions!" I say raising my voice. "Mila, calm down. I know this is a hard time for you, it is for all of us. We miss Lauren too". I could not hold back the tears that came "I....I just......want her back, Dinah. I want her back so badly, my whole body......my heart is aching for her". Dinah held me for at least an hour before she left convinced I was asleep, which I wasn't. 

My fiance is dead and I'm going around having an 'affair' with my ex boyfriend. I look down at the diamond ring on my finger, should I take it off? After an absurd amount of time debating with my self,I decide to keep it on as a reminder of the good old days that now seem like it was from another lifetime.

~ 2 hours later~

I know what I must do, I can't take this anymore, I have to do this. I kiss the ring and let my lips linger there for a while before I started writing in my last hours here left on this cruel world.

I've thought about this for a while now, I can't believe I'm actually doing it. Its finally going to be over, I'm finally letting go. My excruciating pain will come to an end. No one should blame themselves for my actions, this is my choice. Dinah, Ally, Mani, Hazza, Zayn, Lou, Niall, Liam, Jade, Perrie, Jesy, Leigh, Dems, Dad, Sofi, harmonizers, I'm am truly sorry but I need to do this. I need to be with the one I love and if this is the only way to that, then so be it. I have been seeing a  psychiatrist in my time of grief and after every session she would ask me if Lauren's death would in any way cause me to commit suicide, I've never answered her until today. So to answer your question Dr. Van Der Woodsen, yes. As I would always say to myself, "There is a difference between a great love and  real-true love", for me Lauren was both. My love for her is endless, imperishable, all-consuming; my mind, body and soul is consumed by her, belongs to her. I once made a mistake in going to my front yard for fresh sure, not knowing the paparazzi were still making my gateway their temporary home, before I could go back inside one of them hollered "Do you still love Lauren?". I don't know why but I had the sudden urge to yell at him, yell at him at the top of my lungs for even questioning my love for Lauren because to answer his question, I can't imagine a day I won't. Lauren and I promised 'forever'  but you know what? Forever is a lie, nothing lasts forever. Lauren was suppose to be my forever, now she's gone, now I welcome nonexistence. There is nothing left for me to life for, a world without Lauren Jauregui is a world not worth living. Its hard to admit she's not in this world anymore , even thinking about our time together is like 10,000 stabs in the heart and even then the pain doesn't subdue. Its hard to face the reality that I'll never see those beautiful mesmerizing.emerald green eyes that just so captivate me in every way, I'll never hear her raspy and soothing voice as she sang me to sleep, my ears will never again have the pleasure of  her adorable laughter ringing through them, my hands will never run through her silky brown hair, I'll never feel her, lips against mine and the butterflies and electricity that comes with it, I'll never......ever be able to hold her in my arms one more time and tell her I love her. Though I may be quoting TFIOS, I am thankful for our infinity Lauren. Oh how I wish I could turn back time. I hope we meet where our hearts collide; the crossroads of eternity, my love. I'm coming for you Lauren, I'll see you soon. Goodbye.
xo xo Camila

~No One's POV~

Ally screamed when she saw Camila's fragile body unconscious on the ground laying next to an empty bottle of pills, "Help! Help! Dinah, Mani!". The 2 girls ran to the origin of their friend's cries and gasped at the sight. Camila on the ground and Ally on the phone with - they assume to be 911. "The ambulance is coming" said Ally stammering with her tears, Normani clutching Camila's unread suicide note.

When the ambulance came, they carried Camila's body onto the stretcher and loaded her into the vehicle. The paps must be eating this up, Dinah thought considering the paparazzi were still stationed outside their gateway when the ambulance came and clearly saw Camila's lifeless body through their high tech camera lenses.

-hospital-

Many doctors and nurses quickly guided the stretcher to the E.R, "Don't you dare give up" said Normani gripping her best friend's unresponsive hand "We lost Lauren, we're not losing you too". "We've got it from here ma'am" said one of the doctors. Normani let go and was embraced by Ally and Dinah, all 3 girls in tears. "She'll be okay. She'll be okay" Ally reassured "Camila's strong".

Time went on while Camila was in the E.R, the girls sat beside each other reading Camila's dying note. Reading it made them cry even more, that their best friend was so heartbroken she tried to take her own life. There was a flat screen TV in the waiting room tuned into E! News.
"Camila Cabello of Fifth Harmony  has been hospitalized  due to unknown reasons but sources speculate the cause to be the possible death of her fiancé, they say Ms. Cabello might've tried to take  her own life due to high cases of depression and anxiety.  In other Fifth Harmony news, band member Normani Kordei was seen earlier this week buying a pregnancy test.....could there be a Loumani baby on the way? Louis...."

Ally and Dinah peeled their attention off of the TV and looked at Normani "Uhhhh". Before she could finish her sentence, her phone buzzed with a text from Wes

"Help. Outside. Paps."

"Wes and Drew are outside. I'm gonna go....uuh um...find them" Normani said hurriedly. She ran to the entrance and saw Wes and Drew surrounded by paps and unable to move. "Hey leave them alone!". The paparazzi turned their attention to the singer and started bombarding questions. "Normani, are you pregnant?!", "yeah its your mom's" the singer snapped back. "Is there a possibility Louis isn't the father?!" "Did Camila try to kill herself?".

"Cmon" said Wes and dragged the singer back into the hospital. "If you're gonna ask about Mila, I don't know anything". "We came here for her but we wanted to tell you, Dinah and Ally that...." , Drew looked to Wes for reassurance and nodded "We think we may know a way to find out where Lauren and Keaton are if they're still out there"

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