Promise Me (Sequel to Learn To Love Again Camren Fanfic)

Step Off The Edge With Me (Part 2)

GUYS! !!! GUESS WHO GRADUATED 8TH GRADE!!!! lol anyway here's the chapter :) ilysm

Song of the chapter
Half A Heart - One Direction

~Camila's POV~

Over the past few days, the girls decided I was depressed. I wasn't eating, I don't leave mine and Lau.....just my room, I haven't had contact from the 'outside' world in god knows how long. Normani hired a psychiatrist to come twice a week to as she said "Help me cope and analyze my grief". Analyze my grief? What does that even mean? Who the fuck does that?! "Camila?" said Ally lightly pushing my door open "Dr. Van Der Woodsen is here". I gave her my does it really look like I give a shit face, "Mila, don't be like that. She's trying to help you, help us, we're all in this together". I groaned loudly, "Fine".

When Ally and I walked into our spacious living room, I see Dinah and Normani already sitting down with the doctor. I take a seat beside Dinah, making me as far from Dr. Van Der Woodsen as possible, "How are you, Camila?" she asked. "Well, my fiancé is dead and they haven't found her body yet so you tell me Dr.", I don't know why me and the girls have these sessions with the to be quite honest, I'd rather lock my self in my room and look at old videos of Lauren and I, and maybe cry myself to sleep after that. The doctor smiled sympathetically, "Look, Dr., I don't need your pity or sympathy" I say harshly. "Mila, stop being to rude and stubborn, we all need this" said Normani, I slumped back on the couch and huffed. "You can call me Serena but if you prefer Dr. then that's fine".

The session dragged on for an hour, the Doctor giving us advice, us re-telling our best memories and funniest memories of Lauren, making sure she never goes un-remembered. I smiled, and laughed. But it all had to come to an end, when we came back to reality, a reality without her. "How long has it been since the.....since you found out that..." Dr. Van Der Woodsen didn't even have to finish her sentence when I answered "Almost 8 weeks now". It became silent. "Well our time is up, I'll see you girls next week". "Thanks Serena!" said Ally out of politeness.

I hear my stomach grumble and realize it's been a long time since I last ate. I grab a 3 foot long sandwich from the fridge and chowed it down. "Mila" said Normani "Please don't shut us out. We're here for you, just let us in". I ignored her, soon I found myself walking in a random hallway and entering an unknown room. Then I realized, I'm in the music room. My eyes wonder to the black colored piano in the middle of the room, my fingertips carefully graze the white keys. I remember this was Lauren and I's favourite place to go in the house when we're not touring. My hands placed themselves on the keys, and my mouth belting a song.

So your friend's been telling me
You've been sleeping with my sweater
And that you can't stop missing me
Bet my friend's been telling you
I'm not doing much better
'Cause I'm missing half of me

And being here without you
Is like I'm waking up to
Only half a blue sky
Kinda there - but not quite
I'm walking 'round with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you

Forget all we said that night
No, it doesn't even matter
'Cause we both got split in two

If you could spare an hour or so
We'll go for lunch down by the river
We can really talk it through

And being here without you
Is like I'm waking up to

Only half a blue sky
Kinda there - but not quite
I'm walking around with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man - at best
With half an arrow in my chest
'Cause I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you

I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a heart without you

Though I try to get you out of my head
The truth is I got lost without you
And since then I've been waking up to

Only half a blue sky (only half the blue sky)
Kinda there - but not quite
I'm walking around with just one shoe
I'm half a heart without you
I'm half a man at best (half a man at best)
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do
I'm half a heart without you

Without you
Without you
Half a heart without you
Without you
Without you

I'm half a heart without you

I stopped playing and buried my face in my hands. I can't take this anymore!!!! I looked up and saw nothing but the ceiling, but I was talking to Him.....God. "Why did you have to take her away from me? Why....why her? You could've taken my fame....money, why did it have to be her?! She was my everything, all I ever needed. Ally always said you were The Good and Almighty God, that you sacrificed your life for our sins and because you loved us.....If you really loved me then why? Why would you do this?" I was on my knees begging....praying.

After 10 minutes of praying, I collapse on the floor, not knowing what to do with myself. Before I knew it i was dialing Harry Styles' number. He answered on the 5th ring "Cam? Oh my god, how are you? You haven't been answering my calls....or the boys'.... I even asked Jade and Perrie if they heard from you". I know I'll regret what I'm about to do, but I need to forget, I need to get her out of my head "Where are you, Haz?". "My plane just landed in California, why?", "Can you please come over? I...I just need a friend". "Of course Cam, I'll be there as soon as I can".

-30 minutes later-

The doorbell rang and a familiar curly head smiled. "Oh Cam" he said giving me a warm hug. "Where are the girls?" he asked, "I-I think they're upstairs....let's go see them" I say hurriedly. I grab his hand and lead him to my room, we enter and I lock the door behind me. "Camila, what are yo--" I cut him off by pressing my lips against his, he was shocked at first and didn't respond. "Cam.." he said against my lips "Stop". Harry used my shoulders to push me back "Camila, I know Jade and I are on a break but I can't do this.....not with you", "I just.....need to get my mind off things". He thought about it for a moment before connecting our lips once more, I moaned against his lips, it didn't feel as soft as Lauren's,  Stop! I can't think about her now, I need to forget her, even if it's just for one night. I grip his curls and pull him closer to me, pinning me against the wall. His mouth latched on my neck, sucking on my sweet spot, I moan at the contact. My hands wander to the helm of his shirt, pulling over his head. He copied my actions and removed my crop top,  leaving me in only my bra. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me to the bed. Harry set me down, him on top, I fumble to remove his belt and accidentally touched his dick which made him moan loudly. I duck my hand in his pants and started pumping wildly "Oh fuck yes, Harry you're so big".

Before I could continue,  he pulled away and asked "Are you sure about this?"

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