You saved me || Sebastian Stan

Chapter 10

The 5 of us made our way towards the aqua theater for the boys panel. We're all just walking in a cluster, but a little spread out, having conversations amongst ourselves. "What should I wear for my date on Sunday? He said fancy but not to formal." I ask (F/n). "Oh shit! It's Friday! We only have two days to get you an outfit!" She yells, but not loud enough for anyone to hear, not even the boys, and they're only a few feet in front of us. Lord knows what they're talking about. "We need to get you a new dress! And new shoes! Oh! We can shop for date clothes together! I totally forgot to tell you! Me and Chris are going on a date on Monday." She spits out rather fast. "You and Chris are going on a date and you didn't tell me??" I slap her arm. "Ow, I'm sorry, it all just happened so fast, and then you found the chocolate, then Anthony came back, then the shrimp thing and you started choking, so I never had time" She explains. "I'm gonna make a wild guess and say he asked just before we walked in on you two kissing?" I guess. "Yeah, how did you know?" She questions. "because after Seb asked me out, I kissed him. So I kinda figured it was the same thing." I explain to her. "Oh, okay." She responds. I see a door ahead of us, with a poster stand that says "Aqua theater backstage". I guess this is where we split... We catch up with the boys and walk almost all the way to the door, but stop just before we make it. "Well this is our stop." Says Anthony, motioning to the door. I don't understand the hidden hallways in here at all. They connect to everything from back here. But out there, you have to go through different rooms, and sometimes you have to go on stairs. It's some wizardry bullshit, I'm tellin' ya. "Yeah I guess so, but we'll be front row, so you won't be getting rid of completely." I state. "Yeah, plus once we get our pictures from yesterday, we'll be going to the signing for you guys to sign them." (F/n) adds on. "Well I'm okay with you two being around a little longer." Says Chris. "As am I" Sebastian adds. "Can y'all not be cutesy around me, I'm going to throw up." Anthony fake gags. "Shut up you idiot." I say with a laugh and pull him into a hug. "Good luck out there" I pat him on the back and pull out of the hug. "Thanks" He responds, giving me a smile. I move over and give Chris a hug, and (F/n) gives Anthony one. "Good luck!" I say, and release the hug. I then walk over to Sebastian. "I wish you could come out there with us, or at least be backstage" He says glumly. "You'll be fine" I put my left hand on his face and run my thumb over his cheek, and he leans into my hand. "Plus I'll be in the audience the whole time." I remind him. "I know, but I'll miss you." He says, putting his hands on my waist, and I put both hands around his neck. "How are you going to survive without me till Sunday, if you cant last an hour and a half without me, hm?" I ask him. "I won't." He responds, and pulls me into a hug. He holds onto me tightly and puts his head on top of mine. I'm pretty tall, be he's taller, but only by a few inches. I bury my head in the crook of his neck and inhale his scent. I don't know how, but it calms me every time I smell it. I'll never be able to smell a cafe, a forest just after a rainfall, or even a fire smoking without thinking of him now. And I'm okay with that. He pulls ever so slightly out of the embrace and kisses my forehead. "I'll see you at the signing" He says, and looks me in the eyes, his gaze soft. "You bet, good luck out there." I say, and pull him in for one more quick hug. I pull out of the embrace and kiss him on the cheek, then walk over to (F/n). I take one quick glance back at Sebastian, and then turn back around, and we enter into the hallway that will take us out to the main room where the entrance to the theater is. We stand by the door for about 5 minutes before before two convention workers come to open the doors. Everyone starts filing in, and everyone is really close, to close for my liking. My breathing gets quick and I feel a little dizzy. I try to calm my breathing and heart rate down by taking big breaths and visualizing a good memory in my head. That way my mind won't focus on panicking, but rather the memory I'm bringing up. Attempt: Unsuccessful. We're about halfway to the front now, but we're still surrounded by people. I turn on my phone to look at the picture on my background and hope that it'll be enough to distract me. My heart rate slows, and so does my breath, but my breathing is still hectic. (F/n) just noticed what's happening, and grabs my arm. "Excuse me, 'scuse me. Coming through" She says as she pulls me to the front of the theater. She gets us to our seat and sits me down. She opens my bag and takes out my water bottle and a granola bar. She then closes my bag and sits down, making me face her. I know it may seem stupid that I can't handle big crowds, because I've done panels for Supernatural, and press for SPN and OUAT, but it's not being in front of them that gets me, it's being in them and being shoved around. (F/n) opens my water bottle and encourages me to drink, I grab the bottle and take a few gulps, then close it and hand it back to her. "(Y/n), look at me. Look at me. The crowd is gone, you're fine, just breath. Okay?" She tries to calm me. I see her look up at the stage and give a nod, and a quick thumbs up. With my body still facing (F/n) and my hands held tightly together in my lap, I look up to where she was looking. I see Sebastian sticking his head out ever so slightly, being careful not to be seen by anyone but us. He's looking at me with concern and fear. And it's only then that I realize how bad I'm shaking. Sebastian then disappears behind the curtain, gone from my sight, so I look back at (F/n). She's giving me the granola bar she got from my bag. I take it, open it, and take a bite, eating it slowly. I feel vibrations on my thigh, so I look down and see that I have a notification. I put my granola bar in my left hand, and pick up my phone with my right. It's a text from Sebastian. I click on the notification and unlock my phone.