Highschool Love-On! (GFriendxBTS)

ch. 14

As he nodded from my question. We became silent for awhile. I didn't know what to continue so I became silent as well. Minutes passed and I decided to just come back to the classroom and just continue to read the book there since I would be able to concentrate, but I hope it has no V this time, pranking me. I told Eunwoo that I would be continuing reading the book to the class room and left the library. 

This time, I was on my earphones to avoid anything bad to happen again.

[sowon pov]

The air from the outside was too refreshing that it made me not want to go to school. But I had to, as a leader of our group. I need to take responsibility, there's no turning back. I was so afraid back then that I might fail. It has been so long since I haven't got supported by anyone. It was only my father who helped me with everything. My mom? I don't even know if she still cares about me. She was too selfish to just leave me and dad behind. 

I got up from the chair and went to the bathroom to wash up. The toast was all ready and so all I did was to put some jams on it and munch it faster to get to school earlier. I had to take notes to help myself create lyrics and songs like any other students can do. I'm afraid that I wouldn't be like any leaders out there that knows how to take responsibility and do multitasking for their group. I feel different always.

When I was younger, I remembered I used to be bullied with my legs. I wanted to be a dancer but they said I couldn't. My father would always refrain me from doing dance lessons because he didn't want me to become an idol. But because I remembered back then the last words from my mother, "Be what you want to be, don't let others refrain you from what you love.".

The clock was ticking and I got 10 minutes left before I could find a cab into school.

After I finished everything with arranging myself with stuffs, I finally got a cab and hurried into the classroom. Glad I didn't got late for the first subject and got it on time.

[lunch time, sowon pov]

It was already lunch time and this time, it was only me, yuju, eunha and umji. The others were busy with who knows what. Yerin told me that she wanted to have a diet while Sinb said that she needed to practice with something. Right now, we were kind of quiet since Eunha got mad with I don't know what reason and Umji and Yuju got quiet the whole time. i was so uncomfortable that I needed to do something, as a leader of course.

"Hey guys. What's up with you all? Why do you guys look so gloomy today?" I ask, out of the blue, trying my bestest to energize the air for a minute.

"Well, you know unnie. There are always things that cannot be explained." I wanted to lift up their mood but I think anything would work. Seeing them sad makes me one too.

I continued on eating and after that, I told them that I'll be somewhere at the garden.

I took a walk into the garden, taking off some of the bad thoughts from my mind. I think it's the first time that I've been here? I don't think I still remember anything. I look at the surroundings which was so wonderful, full of nature-related things that could keep you calm everytime.

The more that I've been here, the better I feel every minute. Time passed and I suddenly hear a hum. It sounded familiar like I've heard it somewhere. It was so soft and calm. I tried to find who it was until I found something underneath the bushes. It was a notebook, a small one. I opened it and found a lot inside. This must be someone's privacy, I mustn't invade it. I just took the notebook instead of just leaving it there lying and try to find the owner of it, probably the one who is humming right now. I looked around until I found a guy's back. He had broad shoulders and it looked like he was listening to a music with his earphones. I wanted to approach but I would probably bother him. As he was about to turn his head, he suddenly stopped humming. He didn't see me because I was hiding by the bushes.

As I saw his face, I knew he was so familiar. He was actually one of the members of the famous group here in the school that's BTS. I was about to finally approach him but the bell suddenly rang. I just exited instead and went back into the classroom. I thought that I should have just approach him earlier. I'll just give the notebook to him after class when I can. This should be his.

[yerin pov] 

After the class was finally over, Sowon unnie was suddenly called by Mr. So. As she left, I saw a small notebook in her table. This must be probably hers. I quickly went out the room to find her but she was nowhere to be seen anymore. I tried to open the notebook to make sure if it's really hers.

'I'm not being faithful

I'm trying to endure
The only thing I can do
Is this

I want to stay
I want to dream a little more
But still

It is time to leave 

Yeah it's my truth
It's my truth
It's probably covered in scars
But it's my fate
It's my fate
But I want to struggle

Maybe I, I can never fly
Like the flower petals over there
I can't become like those with wings
Maybe I, I can't touch the sk'

It's probably a written lyrics. This sure has to be Sowon's notebook. The last word looked unfinished. So it means that the whole song isn't probably done yet. I don't know, Sowon unnie is probably trying to make a new song for us.