Phan Oneshots

Action Speaks Louder than Words

"Stop trying to get me to say I love you! Aren’t you even remotely happy that I like you Phil! You know I don’t believe in love. I will never love anyone!" 

Dan regrets these words every single day after he’d said them. It’s been six months since he could have Phil beside him. Six months of thinking and crying. 

Dan misses the way their sweaty body’s felt pressed together after earlier events. He missed being hugged and kissed. He missed those happy blue eyes and outlining patterns on his milky white skin. He wanted Phil close to him but it was too late, he was no longer his. 

“Sorry babe I need to go home.” John, Phil’s new gray eyed boyfriend speaks up seconds after checking his phone. 

“Promise me you’ll come for lunch tomorrow with us? You don’t mind right Dan? 

“Of course not.” Dan smiles fighting to recoil from disgust it’s safe to say he doesn’t like John. “I’m going to head to my room early. Sorry I’m not feeling well.” 

He isn’t lying. He stomach feels like it can barley contain the small portion of pasta he just had. His eyes hurt from trying to force away the tears.

“Are you ill?” Phil rushes forward, pushing John away from the embrace they were sharing. He places his soft lips on Dans forehead, checking for a fever, it was the way his mum had taught him best to check for a fever so he says. Dans eyes start to water. He misses this so much but it hurt. Forcing tears away Dan wonders if its possible to check for a broken heart. 

“It must have been something I ate.” Dan whispers stepping away from Phil. “I’ll be fine by tomorrow”

Dan walks to his room after waving a goodbye to the couple avoiding those blue eyes that were once his. 

“I’m so stupid.” Dan whispers crawling into his bed. He feels the lump I’m his throat and can’t keep it in any longer. He lets out silent sobs. He was stupid for being so cruel to Phil but he had a promise to keep to himself. He’s only said I love you once to someone who never deserved it. Deep down Dan knows Phil did deserve those words from Dan. But he was scared, he didn’t want to be left to deal with his demons alone like he was the last time. It’s not like it matters…he lost everything anyways. For the hundredth time in six months Dan cries himself to sleep aching for someone, preferably Phil, to wrap their arms around him holding him right. 

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“Phil please! Listen to me!” A voice wakes Dan from his slumber. It was two in the morning which confuses Dan. But the voice sounds familiar. It takes him a few second to recognize the voice. 

“There’s nothing to talk about John.” Phil’s deep voice travels through the house. 

‘Something’s wrong,’ Dan thinks to himself, ‘they never fight.’ 

Imminently Dan rushes out of his bedroom. To see John knocking on Phil’s door begging to be let in. 

“John?” 

“Oh thank god! Dan! Please talk to Phil. He won’t let me explain.” John says looking at Dan hopefully. 

“What did you do to him?” Dan asked his face showing anger and annoyance.

“That’s doesn’t matter. Please ta-” 

“What did you do to him John?” Dan interrupts.

“I-“

“He cheated on me.” Phil’s voice says. He’s leaning on his open door as calm as ever. 

“Get out.” Dan growls at John. 

“But-“

“I said get out!” He yells grabbing Johns arm dragging him towards the door.

“Phil! Please let me explain! It was an accident!” John yells fueling Dans anger. 

“Shut up!” Dan yells. “You’re a complete ass John! I may have been an ass but I never ever though of cheating on Phil! Cheating isn’t an accident!” 

“Neither is what you did!” John yells back. 

“He had a valid reason unlike you John, now please get out of our house.” Phil’s soft voice makes them both jump. 

John gives Dan and Phil a dirty look before slamming the door behind me. 

“I didn’t have a valid reason for what I did.” Dans the first one to speak. 

“Heartbreak is a hard thing to get over Dan. It took me long to put together but it was him right? The first guy you dated that made you not believe in love.” Phil takes a step forward. Dan takes one step back thinking back to his teen years.

“It still wasn’t a valid reason.” He whispers not looking Phil in the eyes. 

“Maybe not a good reason. You know I would never hurt you.” Phil whispers cupping Dans face making him look into his blue eyes.

“I didn’t know. If I was used once I could be used again.” Dan says pulling away from Phil’s reach. “Plus you already hurt me.”

“Dan.”

“Yea?”

“I didn’t mean to.” Phil’s eyes search for his but Dan avoids them looking at the ground.

“It’s not like it matters. You deserve happiness, you deserve to be with one who believes in love and will say it back because Phil Lester you deserve to hear those words.” Dan looks up to see Phil’s eyes filled with tears.

“I only want to hear those words from you Dan.” He whispers 

“B-but John. I thought you were done with me.” 

“I wanted to see if I was over you but I’m not Dan and I never will be.” Phil whispers. 

“I’m sorry Phil I-I can’t say it I-” Dan stutters. 

“I don’t want you to say it right now. I know deep down you love me Dan. You care about me or else you wouldn’t have cared if John cheated on me. As much as I would love to hear you tell me you love me, action speaks louder than words.” Phil says wrapping his arms around Dans waist snuggling into his chest due to being the small one out of both. 

“Thank you.” Dan whispers a tear escaping his eye. He hugs Phil tighter before pulling apart. Dan leans down to press his lips against Phil’s sighing with content. He’s missed this 

He’s missed this so fucking much.

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