Thinking.(Naruto)

Chapter Ten

It was quiet, Sasuke and Naruto lay in the living room in silence, Naruto in the shorts Sasuke lent him exposing his shredded thighs and Sasuke holding him next to him. It's quiet and in small frail hands there is a warm steaming cup of coffee. They don't speak for a while and Sasuke stays holding the smaller boy towards his chest, he struggles to grasp this concept that Naruto is not happy, not in the slightest. Gritting his teeth he moves his hand down to Naruto's thigh feeling the large angry gashes. Naruto let's out a shaky breath and grasps his hand to stop him. "Please don't, don't touch them." He whispers softly. Sasuke turns slightly to face him. "Why? I've seen them, you've got nothing to be afraid of or to hide." Cerulean eyes avert their gaze. "They're disgusting-I'm disgusting, it's just-" Sasuke has had enough he reaches forward yanking Naruto by his golden locks. "Look at me." He says sternly, he's face to face with the blonde and is merely centimeters apart. "You aren't disgusting, not you, not your body, not your cuts of your scars! You're perfectly fine, beautiful even," he breathes out exasperatedly. "Don't you ever say otherwise because that is fucking bullshit." A small nod comes from the other party who's eyes are swimming with tears of grief. "Sasuke..." his voice is broken and his body is frail, the raven haired boy never imagined he'd ever see him in this state. "Naruto... do you-do you want to talk about it?" He swallows. There is a lump in his throat and his own eyes are filled with tears that he'd been trying to hold back. Maybe it was the thought that he'd do this to himself, or maybe it was the thought that one day he might end up dead one day, or that he kept it hidden because he was to scared to say anything. "I don't-I don't want to burden you with my problems, it's just a lot of shit is going on in my head and I can't get my shit together." The Uchiha huffed blowing stray hairs away from his face. "I want to hear about your problems, you aren't a burden, not in the slightest." So there it all came out, the reason he felt like shit, the restless nights, the break ins and the hate that he felt. He tells him how useless and ugly he is, how all he does is cry, how frail his body is, how he'll never become the hokage,how he can't see anything good about himself anymore and how panic attacks eat him alive. Sasuke listener intently his heart aching at the sound of Naruto Uzumaki falling apart, his voice soft and quivering, eyes filled with tears, palms gripping the fabric of his shirt. In this moment all Sasuke wanted to do was hold him, tell him it'd be alright and perhaps....kiss him. Wait, kiss him? When has he ever wanted to kiss him? That's not right.... is it? He didn't know at all anymore but in this moment where the blonde sat so vulnerable he didn't know what to do, he was in fact frozen in his spot. He stayed there frozen only listening and softly rubbing circles on Naruto's back until he eventually calmed himself and he actually fell asleep. Adjusting himself Sasuke sighed, he didn't know how to help his friend, he couldn't help his friend because he was new to this and he didn't want to say anything to the boy that could trigger him or send him away from him again. Whatever he supposed he would worry about it after a long nap.
It was about 12:47pm when Sasuke opened his eyes once more. Looking over Sasuke panicked as Naruto was no longer asleep beside him. "Naruto?" He called out. "I'm here!" Came a shout from the kitchen. Walking into the kitchen Sasukes eyes widened noticing a few things, one, Naruto had made breakfast, two, he looked slightly better although his eyes were still puffy and slightly red, and three his best friend was wearing one of Sasukes shirts and as far as he's seen some small undies underneath. "Hope you don't mind I borrowed one of your shirts to sleep in, I was cold and your shirts are huge." Naruto says softly. Sasuke could only look away his face red because of how fucking appetizing Naruto looked in his shirt with the Uchiha crest on it. "No it's fine, you don't have to worry about it." He mumbles out walking towards the blonde. "Hey," he says reaching his hand out to touch Naruto's tan face, to which the blonde nuzzled into, "how are you feeling? Any better ?" Naruto nods smiling up at him. "Yeah, thanks Sasuke, it means a lot that you were here for me and that you listened to me when I really needed you to." He whispers. "No problem you idiot, that's what friends are for right?"Naruto's smile widens and he squints his eyes shut in happiness letting out a soft giggle. "I love you Sasuke, you're my best friend." Sasuke smiled at him however at the word 'friend' he couldn't help but to feel a small pain in his chest. What if.... what if he wanted to be more than friends with Naruto? Would he judge him? Would he care for him still? Would he like him back? No don't be silly Sasuke he would never like you back, besides Naruto is not gay..... is he? Now that he thinks about it Naruto never mentioned anything about being gay or straight before. What was Sasuke going to do? He can't love his best friend.... he was supposed to revive his clan so he can't be gay, Jesus Christ this was a large ass mess. Sasuke swallowed hard as he looked down at Naruto who was dressed in his clothes, smiling at him, had messy cute bed hair, and was actually tucking gorgeous. "Naruto..," Sasuke whispers. The blonde tilts his head biting his lip innocently, "hm?" He hums out.

And suddenly Sasuke can't help himself so he leans in and connects their lips....