Thinking.(Naruto)

Chapter Twenty One

Chapter Twenty One

"I wanted to talk to you about something important." He breathes out. Sasuke hand finds the boys and he laces their fingers together. Immediately Jiraiyas expression changes slight concern coming through his eyes, but his lips remain sealed waiting for his pupil to speak. "Ah- um i-it's important but it's not that big maybe I should just—" Sasuke pinches the skin Narutos fingers causing him to yelp. "Don't be stupid just say it, its very important you dumbass." Suddenly laughter bubbles up inside of Narutos chest, giggles that turned into watery hiccups and tears. Blue eyes swimming like an ocean. "I guess so, um— I wanted to talk to you about my mental health I guess. "

Narutos fingers trembled and his shoulders shook the more he tried to still himself. "I haven't been— Well I have been recently but I also haven't in the past, I mean I haven't been good in my head." Jiraiyas gaze pierced through him and he felt frozen. "I wanted to talk to you cause you're like my dad— and I-I'm trying to get over it since I've been forming bad habits. I was cutting myself a while back. I'm trying not too anymore— don't worry I'm fine—!" Anguish. Agony was written on Jiraiyas face, stopping naruto right in his tracks.

The expression on his mentors face made a new lump form in his chest. Guilt swelled up inside his stomach and sweat traced its way down his palms. He took in a shuddering breath and watched the man before him crumble. Jiraiya wasn't the type of man to cry, he was strong at heart, and yes he did let his emotions carry him but tears hardly ever came to his eyes. Maybe that's why Naruto felt so guilty. Maybe it was a mistake after all, he shouldn't have told him. He shouldn't have bothered him, what an idiot.

Naruto slowly rises to his feet bowing to his teacher. "I'm sorry pervy sage—" warmth. Narutos body is encompassed in warmth, shocking him completely. There, he felt his teacher holding him tightly. "You're a fool." Jiraiya whispers. "I'm here for you, insolent brat."

The blonde smiles softly jittery because of his anxiety and overwhelmed by an emotion he couldn't quite comprehend yet. "Thanks... dad."

Although the white haired man doesn't physically cry at the statement, it squeezes his heart and traps the air in his lungs. Leaving him frail, and soft. This boy who'd just called him father was in fact his own. He'd promised his predecessor that he would take care of his son, and at the beginning it may have been out of pure guilt but now, as the blonde stands before him calling him dad... it's because he was always meant to be the boys guardian.

"Naruto," the sage starts finally pulling himself from the boy. "The cutting stops now, and the hiding does too. You don't have to be afraid to talk to me.. I'm your dad after all."

"I'll try my best." The blonde sniffles out. Sasuke who was still in the room reached out to run circles on the boys back, and on his normally stoic face a soft smile took the place of his usual frown.

In the end it all worked out. The relationship between mentor and student was now father and son, an unspoken bond the two had always had. Sasuke was truly happy for his boyfriend, this was likely the start of something new. His boyfriend finally got the father figure he wanted, and now he had more people to talk to when he needed to.

But something felt off inside his chest. Seeing Naruto and Jiraiyas bond made a strange feeling grow inside him. Similar to the feeling of a murky swamp. Muddy, and dark. Was he... jealous? No he couldn't be that's just silly. But if not jealousy what then? Why did he feel this way? He's happy for Naruto isn't he?

As soon as the two leave it gets quiet. The walk home is uncomfortable to Sasuke, almost unbearably so. Naruto walks beside him, quiet and in a daze. But every step they take Sasuke feels more and more anxious, like something is about to burst inside of him. A dam of emotions building and ready to spill out in an angry rage.

"Sasuke—", Naruto starts. "Shut up."

Shock rises to the blondes face. The patter of his feet stop, and he's frozen in place. Sasuke felt so hostile, so cold. It was as if he was talking to someone frozen in an iceberg. "What's wrong?" Comes out timidly. Blue eyes face glowing red ones in the dark, gazing into an abyss of what comes out as anger.

"I said shut up." Rage boils beneath Sasukes facade. He's so angry, it's not fair. It's not fair, not fair, not fair, not fair at all. Naruto got to have a family after all.

Where was his family hm? Everyone he cared for was dead. Why was it that Naruto always got the better end of things?

What's wrong with you? Shouldn't you be happy for him? Isn't this what you wanted for him? Pathetic.

Naruto reaches a small hand out toward him and he pulls away with a snarl.

It's not what he intended, he's unsure of why he's acting this way. It's not Narutos fault, but the anger is boiling to the top filling him with rage. "Did I do something wrong?..." the blonde frowns, new tears boiling to the surface.

"Why do you get everything you want huh?" A pained grin stretched across the Uchihas face and red sharingan eyed grow narrow and colder. "What do I get from this Hn? Nothing. I get nothing! I get nothing from you, nothing but problems. Nothing but pain."

Blue eyed widen in agony.

"M'sorry.." comes out soft and full of guilt. Naruto hadn't meant to cause any problems. What had changed ? Weren't they fine moments ago?

"I hate you." Sasuke spits out.

He's consumed by anger. Hatred boiling through him, and it's ruining everything.

"I know." Naruto whispers wearing a grim smile.

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:0 not me updating a year later simply cause I wanted to 😭🤚🏻