Scattered Pieces

Eyes of Your Personality

People may or may not realize the different types of personalities that they show. It reveals a part of them to the world. From a lover to an enemy. From a friend or a family member. From an expressive outlet to the mental side of your mind. All of these can show off a different part of your personality. But what are their colors? Are they similar or a totally different being from each other? Sit back, relax, and I'll use myself as an example of what I am saying by looking beyond my natural brown eyes.

 You guys know that I write, but what color do I use to define this personality trait of mine? Well, I see this part of myself with a rich purple iris. This color is how I created Digi, my online persona, and my original character. Purple is known to be imaginative, creative, and is in the clouds with daydreaming. I like to pretend that I'm in my own world and becoming the main character of a story whose life is nothing but calm. Otherwise, I end up putting myself in an alternate reality or anime show and start talking to them as if we were friends. That 'skill' allows me to create my stories because I put myself in their shoes. I am in this headspace where I'm speaking from two different points of views while in reality, I'm having a conversation with myself. Yes, I may look insane but it is very helpful to figure out who they are as a living individual. It feels so comfortable knowing it is like I'm two different people working together to write. As weird as it sounds but purple allowed me to relax and let this creative outlet accept me in their arms.

Now I'm not someone who likes to get angry. It is actually the worst thing for my health and hurt any form of relationship I have. I think this is why I like to burn and destroy things along with finding ways to release that emotion. Anger gets the color of a red iris and a black sclera or I would like to call it my demon eyes. This demon is definitely not my friend as it pushes me to use vulgar language to call out someone. I'm scared to know when will the verbal fight turn into physical. Rage in my family comes from both forms and I'm glad it is verbal as of right now.

Aside from anger, I do have a mischevious side that wants to do a lot of things. These eyes are all around white. As I get older, I start to hate life around me and I would love to cause mischief to make a statement. So one idea I have is to carry a mini fog machine with me and walk inside a church. I would turn it on and pretend that I'm burning up after stepping into a holy place. You think that is bad, just wait until someone thinks I am possessed and decides to perform to do an exorcism or throw holy water on me. I will egg them on and pretend that the demon is coming out of me or have the holy water 'burn' my skin. This is just my mischief towards religion, so don't even try forcing that on me. Finally, I would like a blown up picture of a middle finger on the side of a blimp and watch it fly over the white house. Too much?

Electric green is the eye of my nerdy fanboy trait. I grew up playing video games along with watching anime and cartoons. I still do it to this day. Now I even get the chance to follow some amazing people online and find that spark to keep myself going in life. There are days I wish I could hug and thank the people who inspire me to follow my passion. I'm even getting the chance to learn what it takes to make an actual video game as a developer. I finally have the chance to bring my writing into a story-driven game like a visual novel. Not only that but I see some shows that inspire me to write my own cartoon or tv show. I like to create my own characters and plugging them into these worlds to see how they act, otherwise, I sit back to enjoy the show. Immersion is key to everything. I will laugh, cry, cheer, and rage at everything now because of how my mind opened. That is why I like to make everything immersive for the audience. It is more fun like that. I love this part of me!

Fuchsia is the color of my artistic nature and overall expressive person. I love to sing and dance even though I'm terrible at it. I love to perform ever since I got my first taste at a student-led musical show during my sophomore year in high school. The funny thing about performing was that my dancing background was from playing those Just Dance games. But on the other side of the spectrum is how I was using other materials to express myself. The habit of filling up a notebook with drawings was my typical life before I decided to use the pencil as lines of words. I know my way around a camera to take pictures and record videos just for fun. Yeah, let's just say I've been my sister's high school prom and homecoming photographer. The videos are a little more quirky because of my plethora of lip-syncing videos. I would love to get back into the video life and make some weird shit along with the artistic nature that I have.

Next is my heterochromia eyes that define my human nature. The reason why this one seems odd is my introverted personality versus my extroverted one. I'm an extroverted introvert or ambivert for short. These colors are gold and cerulean. Cerulean is my introverted side of me due to my calm and shy nature. I'm not really much of a talker when I meet new people and I still have a habit of not talking to people because I will tend to be silent. I can leave a room without a trace and make it look like I wasn't even there. I'm like a mouse who learned the art of ninjutsu. Now gold is where I'm more bouncy and loud. I can be very talkative, slightly funny, and sassy towards other people. This can make or break the chance of having a bigger social life than what I already have. Two different personalities within one and it all comes down to who you are actually communicating with.

There are so many parts of your personality that they can be their own being. It all comes down to how you see them. How many of them are there? What are their colors? How do they describe your personality?