I couldn't remember the last conversation we had;
Not a word "hello" with happiness and glad.
I missed those times; I longed those memories;
Not now, not again.
"Is this you?" He asked.
"Yes it's me and why?" I replied.
"Your voice seems different" said he.
We enjoyed together,
We laughed like no other.
Not now, not again.
Every time I got a chance to talk to you,
Always made my day, yes I do.
Couldn't resist the feeling I have,
Knowing that I'm already in love.
Not now, not again.
I dived into feelings;
And flowed into words.
I swam like a dolphin;
Chasen by emotion.
Not now, not again.
Suddenly oh suddenly!
I found myself falling;
Falling so deep!
Then sank like a helpless ship.
Nothing more, nothing less;
Not now, not again.
I'm so stupid to expect that I'm special;
Like those words you've delivered that sounds peculiar.
And yes I'm hurt with false expectation,
Realizing that one's "Forever" doesn't exist in a wrong person.
Not now, not again.
I pray to God that someday,
He'll give me wings to spread whenever and wherever I fall;
Nothing to worry about;
Nothing to fear for;
Because it's nicer to love and be loved.
Do hoping it now, believing it again.
-Turay
Dedicated to Pawi
August 24, 2017
