Hold My Hand

2

he invites Kongpob inside his dorm that night. it's Sunday and tomorrow Kongpob will be busy with his school works and he'll be back at ocean electric for his internship. they bought food along the way and throughout the ride to the elevator, Kongpob has this smirk on his face.

maybe I shouldn't have invited him, he thought. his junior might have other things in mind.

"thank you for inviting me over, P'Arthit," Kongpob says.

"yeah, yeah," he waves, "i'll be back with the internship tomorrow so."

"you'll miss me?"

he looks at Kongpob incredulously, "wha - what are you talking about. I - we'll both be busy with - give me that!" he snatches the plastic bag from Kongpob and turns to the table to set up their dinner.

arthit's feeling hot all of a sudden. only his boyfriend can do that to him nowadays.

boyfriend. it still surreal for him - that he has a boyfriend, that Kongpob is his boyfriend. he's been in love before - with Namtarn, and the closest thing to a relationship he had was with his bed. so this whole relationship thing is fairly new to him. he doesn't know what to do, doesn't know how to act, especially around Kongpob who makes him want to do things he normally would not think of doing.

arthit thinks he will not get over with his feelings for Namtarn but he was wrong. Kongpob came in like a storm - unexpected, and for the better part of hazing the freshmen Arthit wasn't prepared for the thunder Kongpob brought with him.

and now, after, Arthit's marveling under the light his moon shines for him. and it feels great.

it's not like he doesn't want Kongpob to know about that - he just doesn't know how to say it without exploding into a mushy mess. Kongpob is smug as he is now, no need to add to his ego.

kongpob sits across him, still wearing that smile, and starts to eat.

"thank you for coming with me today, P'Arthit," Kongpob says mid-dinner.

"don't mention it," he says, "boyfriend duties, I guess."

kongpob smiles and says, "I had fun today, thank you."

"no need to thank me, Kongpob."

"didn't you have fun today, P'Arthit?" Kongpob raises his brows.

he knows this is a trap but he's not sure how. "hmmm," he puffs his cheeks and says, "yeah, I had fun."

kongpob chuckles and he raises his brows in question.

"you're too cute, P'Arthit."

"wha - what are - I'm not cute!" he really needs to stop stuttering around his boyfriend.

"look, you're already blushing," Kongpob grins, "so cute."

"kongpob!" he purse his lips and remembers, "don't think I forgot about you flirting with those girls."

"oh, so P'Arthit really was jealous huh?" Kongpob smirks, "I already told you P', I wasn't flirting with them. I told them you were my boyfriend."

"whatever," he mumbles.

"besides," Kongpob continues, "there's only one sun I'm orbiting. And that's you P'Arthit."

arthit thinks he's going to explode. whenever Kongpob talks to him like that he doesn't know what to do. he's flattered, sure, but he doesn't know how to react - his traitorous body does that to him already by blushing red every damn time.

his initial reaction whenever his boyfriend gets all sweet like that is to glare at him - which he does now, or physical violence. but really, he secretly likes it. it's nice being on the receiving end of flattery, especially if it's coming from Kongpob. again, he's not going to just say it to Kongpob, his boyfriend might jump him if he did.

after dinner Arthit sits on his bed and does not know what to do. they've been dating for months for god's sakes. Kongpob has been in his room numerous times since dating him, so why does his stupid heart beats like he just drank 10 cups of coffee?

this is another thing that Arthit wants to overcome - his anxiety.

what do lovers do after dinner? all they've done so far was kissing, and a little bit of feeling each other, but that's about it. Kongpob hasn't initiated anything other than that and for that Arthit is thankful. but still, he can't help but think that they're going to have sex every time Kongpob steps into his room. and that may have to do with how his boyfriend looks at him like he wants to devour him right then and there.

he hasn't done it before - have sex. arthit is a freaking virgin. he has no experience with the opposite sex much more with the same equipments as him.

but just like every night Kongpob stops by, his boyfriend smiles and him and says, "thank you for the dinner P'," and starts walking towards the door.

it's all in his head, he knows that. they'll cross that bridge when they get there - soon.

this is another thing he loves about his junior - he destroys all the anxiety he has.

part of him doesn't want Kongpob to leave, to let him stay the night, but they can't do that. Arthit will have to wake up early tomorrow which he's not too happy about. he likes his sleep thank you very much.

arthit walks Kongpob to the door. just standing this close to his boyfriend makes his heart beat a thousand times over it's almost suffocating. he wants to touch - he so badly want to touch Kongpob but he's not sure himself. if he does so he's not sure he'll be able to stop. arthit has never felt this kind of feeling before, he's not sure how to handle it.

as usual, Kongpob makes the first move - he always does. i'm a man, too dammit.

"goodnight, P'Arthit," Kongpob has this look on his eyes like he doesn't want to leave as well.

stay

"goodnight, Kong."

then Kongpob kisses him. it always catches Arthit off guard. he can still taste their dinner, the iced coffee mixed with his pink milk. it's one of those kisses that makes him forget everything - he doesn't know kisses could do that. Kongpob's lips are firm and each kiss is commanding at the same time gentle leaving him weak in the knees. Kongpob cups his jaws and his hands move on their own.

their foreheads touch as they breathe in each other. he knows he has a lot to do, a long way to go. but for now, Arthit will let Kongpob lead him in this relationship.

"goodnight, my sun." his moon breathes.

"goodnight, my moon."

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AN
Thank you for reading! I like to explore more on Arthit's inner monologue since we mostly saw Kongpob's in the tv series.

I'm not familiar with Thailand's University system but in where I live the engineering course is a 5 year program. We've seen at the end of first season that the seniors are starting their internship already so I incorporated it here.

Anyway. I'll try to update as soon as I can.