Birthday ☆Chloenette → Miraculous Fanfic.

▣ d i a r y ~ 3

I've never felt like an idiot more in my life. You know diary, I wish life could be less cruel to me. Actually life is the true evil because they have taken the most important person in my life, Momma.

I know she's still out there, still in this world, on a continent, maybe in Europe, in France, maybe even still here in Paris.

I wonder if she still thinks of me as much as I think of her. I wonder if daddy still thinks of Momma... He probably is just as broken as I am but is strong enough not to show it.

I wish to be that strong .

I stare at the Effiel Tower from my bedroom window looking down to all the cars sometimes and wonder if Momma is going to walk though those hotel doors.

It's been so long though, maybe I won't even recognize her.

My own Momma.

Sometimes I wonder what was going though daddy's head when he called the search off for Momma.

I remember how much counciling I had to go though, since I found it so hard to speak to anyone including daddy. Now.... I dunno if I've changed.

I definitely don't feel like it, I'm still the same girl that breaks down crying everytime a sweet memory comes around. I still can't speak a fucking sentence properly in front of Marinette.

All my fucking communication is though head gestures! You know, there was this boy that was an exchange student from London. His name's Nathaniel, he used to draw the most beautiful drawings during recess and lunch.

I remember how he sat onto the table where I would usually sit on my own, however I sat across from him and instead of sleeping I would stare hours on end watching his small hands continuously work on a masterpiece.

His drawing spoke things that I never knew could be said before, that's when I realised how much talent he had.

He never really talked to me at all, you know. But one day he magically disappeared, you know, he left a trace though.

I went to the spot we would usually sit and there was a book, curiosity got the best of me for once and I looked at it and there was a sticky note.

' We might've never spoke to each other, but I know there are a lot of things going on in your mind.

Write them in here. Just how I express my feelings though art, you can do it with writing.

Hope to be back in Paris again soon.

- Nathaniel. '

I remember reading that note just like it was yesterday, although I do miss him. I wonder if his art made it into any museums - I'd like if there was one exhibition dedicated to him. I would just stare at them looking for all the hidden meanings.

However, that's why I started writing. Underneath the sticky note up a black with golden polka dots diary with a matching pen, I'll be honest I wasn't to enthusiastic about starting a diary. Just look at me now how I'm writing on the page like no tomorrow.

I also remember that I looked on the last page and there was a hand drawn picture of Marinette with hearts around her. I was so surprised he knew I liked her... I never even told him.

He was seriously insane, but that good and unique insane, you know, that insaneness that only an artist can have.

I wonder if he's ever going to come back to Paris, maybe I'd even talk to him... Probably shower him in compliments lol. I'm not good at talking you see, can't even do it to save my life.

I'm on the headlines of Sabrina's stupidly written school blog again, apparently Luka wasn't invited to that party Marinette invited me to and it was apparently because he said that I wasn't cool.

I mean he was just stating the truth, cause I know for a fact that I'm definitely not cool or popular. I'm not sure if I should be grateful towards Marinette for standing up for me or not...

She could've lost Luka as a friend.

Plus it's not like I'm going to go to school and Monday and be like, "Thanks Mari, you are the absolute best. Let's me friends!! Omg! " I know that I should be doing that.

However, I think we all know how that conversation is going to go down like.

"H-Hey - T-Thanks f-f-for t-t-that t-t-think y-your c-c-cute "

Because I cannot fucking stop saying thing I don't want to say in front of her, like come on! Mouth say something properly.

See, see, this is why I have no human interaction. Can't say a fucking sentence properly.

I bet some people are rooting for something, like some drama obviously, cause that's what school is about! Drama and shit! Thanks Sabrina! To go down between Marinette and I, but once you have a snail and a social butterfly nothing's ideally gonna go down.

You know I now see Ladybug and Chat Noir hopping around over the rooftops, there's probably some akuma attack going on. I sometimes wonder why I've actually never been akumatised, like they feed off sadness and anger....

I wonder if Hawkmoth actually may know me in civilian form, maybe he might've captured my mom...

Omg I just wrote that. Shit. Maybe it's true, maybe Hawkmoth is the one that captured my mother, why would he do that though? I mean there's no possible information to get off her.

My mother was a model for Gabriel Agreste's fashion, mainly, as he is my uncle. A lot of other companies wanted her to model for them as well though.

Wait. My mother disappeared shortly after Ms Agreste, the wife of Gabriel Agreste and famous actress.

This could be linked!?

Maybe they were kidnapped by the same kidnapper?

You know what, I feel like a detective! I like this! Hmm... I should probably let Adrien know about this, he's also unhappy (obviously) because his mother disappeared. However, it hasn't effected him as much... What am I saying? It's probably effected him just as much and probably more than me.

Maybe I should do some research around the city....

Maybe they are targeting me next.

Does this mean I'll see Momma again?

I hope I do.

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All of the first person diary like entries are Chloe's, sorry if it's caused any confusion for you. >< I also try to update this story in two chaps because it's alternate one Chap diary and one Chap for the actual plot until the plot thickens and then we'll have just plot :D

Thank you for reading ! ( I apologize again the cover is awful I'll be fixing it soon :) )

-Nixy™