god among thieves // catfish

- facade

the tears
need to stop
countless nights curled up
like a lonely ball in
the corner of my bed
ignoring any piece
of advice given
to me

were you even
worth the tears
i shed?

i loved you
and
you knew that
you're an asshole
for taking advantage
of it

yet
i couldn't bring myself
to hate you no
matter how i
try

if i did,
i'd never forgive myself
because i made
myself believe
that you were the only thing
that mattered to me
in this godforsaken world.