The One That Got Away

Chapter 16

Harry POV

"One cut....two cuts....three cuts....four..." I sang my drunk ass off, cutting the sleeves off my shirts with scissors as I chuckled to myself.
"D-Do y-you like it, S-Sel?" I asked, holding my cut shirt in front of a portrait of Selena as I smiled and nodded.
"I-I knew you w-would baby, I d-did i-it for youuu! HA HA!" I slurred, taking a long sip out of the alcoholic drink as I throw the shirt and scissors to the ground and stumble my over to my bed, feeling the burning sensation down my throat.
It's been two weeks since Selena left and took Harley, I was a mess. I've called her, I've text her, nothing.
I didn't know how to comfort myself through this heartbreak, so I turned to drinking. I haven't gone to the studio, all the work is left behind but I didn't care.
All I cared about was Selena and her leaving, nothing more.
I'm actually surprised I'm still alive. By how much I've been drinking, I should be dead by now even if I deserve it.
"Oh Haz! Y-You f-forgot you t-teddy!" I shouted, holding up Horace like if I were talking to Harley.
"Well bruhh....it's m-mine n-now" I burped, dropping the stuffed teddy bear on my bed.
"Mr. Styles?"
"HUH?! WHAT?!" I stumbled, looking and turning around as I see Nona standing forward me.
"NONA! Y-YOU STAYED WITH M-ME!" I smiled, stumbling my way towards before I make it and wrap my arm around her shoulders.
"Youuu, d-dear, must r-really love m-me" I slurred, taking another long chug out of the alcoholic drink.
"Mr. Styles, Mr. Malik and Mr. Horan are here to see you"
"R-REALLY?! I-I'LL BE RIGHT D-DOWN!" I yelled excitedly, stumbling away from her before I was stumbling my way downstairs. Finally after arriving downstairs, I see Zayn and Niall standing there, waiting for my appearance.
"ZAYN! NIALL! M-MY BEST M-MATES!" I yelled, stuttering as I stumble my way towards them, practically almost tripping on the ground.
"Harry? Is that you?" Niall asked, taking a good look at me.
"Y-YUPP! Yup! Yup! Yup! YYYUUPP!" I slurred, taking another long sip out of the alcoholic drink.
Zayn furrows his eyebrows, snatching the bottle out of my hands before looking at it and glaring up at me.
"Vodka? Really, Harry?!"
"Y-YES! I saw i-it first" I whined, snatching it back, as he scolds in disgust.
"Harry, I don't know why we're here, but Zayn wants to talk to you" Niall sighs, motioning Zayn to speak.
"Look Harry, I'm here to tell you about Selena"
"W-What do you m-mean? She's r-right here" I smiled, stumbling my way over to table lamp with a small picture frame of Selena's photo in it.
"No she's not! She's gone Harry, she left with Harley to New York City!"
"Selena left?" Niall asked Zayn, with full concern and hurt on his face. I don't know why, but his concern made me snap some jealously inside me.
"O-OF COURSE Y-YOU WOULD CARE! I-IT'S NONE OF Y-YOUR BUSINESS A-ANYWAYS!"
"I was just asking, Harry!"
"O-OH I KNOW Y-YOU DO L-LIKE HER! AFTER ALL, Y-YOU DID T-TRY TAKING HER FROM M-ME!"
"She's just a friend, I'm your best mate! How could you think that?!"
"I-I thought you w-were, I-I THOUGHT!"
"THAT'S ENOUGH!!!" Zayn yells, interrupting us from getting any closer to anything physical.
I just gaged, waving my hand carelessly at them as I stumble my way towards to the table lamp.
"Nialler, he's drunk. He doesn't kin what he's thinking" I heard him whisper to Niall as I rolled my eyes in annoyance.
"Harry, we just want to help you get your wife back!" Zayn exclaimed, throwing his arms up in the air.
I let out a shaky breath, picking up the photo of Selena which made my eyes water by the heart break. There's no use of helping me, like I see it, it seems like I'm too late.
"S-She doesn't want me b-back.....she's filing f-for a d-divorce"
Zayn's eyes widen, Niall staring at me in shock as I just shook my head, hugging the picture frame to my chest.
"Harry.....she'll take you back. You just made a mistake.....Marisa manipulated you Harry! It wasn't your fault, I realize it now!" Niall walks up to me, telling me all these lies as I shook my head.
"I-I let her d-do this t-to me.....I-I lost e-everything......" I broke down, my voice cracking as the tears start to stream out of my eyes and down my face while I still held the picture frame to my chest.
"A-And now, all I have left t-to d-do.....is just s-sit here and drink t-to my d-death, c-cause that's where I-I'm suppose to b-be"
"Don't say that, Haz....." Niall whispered, looking at me with his bright blue eyes with pure hurt, care, and sadness.
I see why Selena would fall for him, he cares more than I ever did. He's better, Niall is better, NIALL IS RIGHT FOR HER!
"J-Just leave......l-leave m-me a-alone p-please!" I clenched my teeth, growling through my tears and heavy breathing.
"Harry, we just want to help-"
"I-I SAID LEAVE! I WANT TO B-BE A-ALONE!!" I snapped, throwing the bottle of vodka across the room, smashing to the wall as it breaks into tiny pieces with alcohol everywhere on the floor.
"Let's go" I heard Zayn whisper to Niall, my back turned to them as I cried, hugging the picture frame tighter to my chest.
It didn't take long to hear them walk out and shutting the front door close, leaving me alone once more with tears and alcohol.
"I-I'm sorry.....I'm s-sorry.....I-I wish y-you w-would come back t-to m-me" I cried, holding the photo of Selena up in front of me before I plant a kiss over it, continuing to cry out of heart break and guilt.

Even with their help, she'll never come back to me.

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Selena POV

"Harley, go wash your hands for lunch" I told him, putting food on his plate.
"Yes, mommy" he nods running off, as he leaves me with Taylor who was sitting on his high chair making noises and gurgles.
Since I'm here, I take care of the kids while Liam and Danielle at work. Why send Taylor to daycare if I'm around, right?
My thoughts were soon interrupted by the sound of my cell phone ringing beside me as I quickly pick it up to see the caller ID.
Zayn.
"Hello?" I answered, biting my bottom lip nervously to hear his words.
"Hey, how are you doing?"
"I'm fine, I'm just taking care of the kids. How's the company doing?"
"I uh, actually shut it down for a bit. I announced it on twitter to let the press know but I didn't confirm why or anything....."
He shut down Gomlik? And it was because of me, I should of thought about our company first before leaving, I'm so stupid!
"I'm sorry, I should of thought about our company before leaving you"
"No it's fine, I understand anyways" he said, trying not to sound upset in any sort of way which he was failing badly at.
I bit my bottom lip nervously, aching to whether ask or not.
Should I ask?
Or should I not?
But I want to know, I have to know!
"How's Harry?" I blurt out, catching Zayn of guard due to his response.
"What?"
"How is he? How's Harry? Is he okay?" I asked desperately, wanting to know how the love of my life was doing.
I know what most of you would be thinking......
'Stop asking about Harry, Selena! He doesn't deserve that from you, your better than that!'
I honestly don't give two shits on what anyone is thinking. I care about him no matter what, even if no one feels sympathy or any sort of feeling for him, I CARE!
"He's...."
"He's what?" I asked, waiting more anxiously for his reply.
"Tell me Zayn!"
"He's.....a mess, Sel"
I couldn't help but cover my mouth with my hand, trying to hold back my tears as I kept hearing Zayn's words.
"There isn't a day, when I don't see him with a bottle in his hand, or crying desperately for you to come back. I also see him with your silver necklace around his neck, or even with Harley's teddy bear. I make sure I visit him, just to make sure he's still breathing, and so does Niall. But to be honest, I don't know for how long that would be until I see him let out his last breath......"
I broke down, tears streaming from my eyes, crying towards my twin brother on the phone.
"K-Keep him b-breathing Z-Zayn....d-don't make h-him let g-go p-please......"
"I'm trying Sel, I care about him even if he made that mistake. Maybe if you just....."
"W-What? Go b-back to L-London?"
"Call him....at least let him hear your voice?"
"I-I don't k-know if I'm s-strong enough" I sniffed, wiping my old tears as new tears came out.
Taylor watches with his full attention on me, as I just stroke his brown hair while still on the phone with his uncle.
"By the sounds of it, you are" he said, with full honestly and trust.
"My opinion to this.....Don't let him go Sel, he needs you"
'he needs you'.
Harry needs me, but is it right for me to go back to him and forgive after all he's done?
He caused me so much pain over the last few months, I'm not sure if I'm ready to forgive.
"I got to go. I talk to you soon, yeah?"
"Yeah....t-tell Harry....."
"Tell him, what?" He asked, waiting for my response as I just stood there speechlessly, tears coming out of my eyes as I shook my head.
"N-Nothing, call me s-soon"
"I will, bye"
"Bye" I hung up quickly, placing my phone over the counter as Taylor's gurgling interrupts me, causing me to look down at him. I saw concern and worry in his brown eyes, just like Liam's.
"I'm okay, p-promise" I sniffed, giving him a weak smile as I stroke his soft brown hair.
All I could remember was what I wanted Zayn I tell Harry.

Tell Harry, I love him.

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