At Ease//Eruri//

//Chapter Nine (Part two)//

In making his way to Hange, he ran into the familiar patient he had interacted with his first days, Eren. Seeing the patient walking the halls as the patient headed back to the front desk, he could feel his daggers for eyes staring at the back of his own head when he walked past him. Ignoring the shooting pain as best as he could, he eventually made his way to the Doctors room. Knocking on the door before entering, he was quickly grabbed outside the door with a forcing tug, dragging himself into the office. Stumbling as he was dragged in, he was motioned to a seat by the Doctor.

"Nice to see you as well Hange" He spoke with a sarcastic tone, chuckling a little before he sat down, leaving his ankle on his knee before speaking "I was quite eager to meet you as well, but maybe you beat my eagerness." Saying with this little smirk, rubbing the arm she gripped horribly before he could see her settle down on the desk. As she leaned on the desk, everything seemed smooth and easy. She asked the basics as to how everything has gone and of course, he gave the basics she was looking for. From the time he entered to the time he left, he exclaimed to Hange that he was simply watching him on the screens and tending to him when needed. No further information was given since he wasn't about to let their personal secret run loose in the whole ward, especially not to Hange.

Hange was a nice lady, very understanding and very smart to say the least, but he knew that even with her understanding to high levels, what he has done could possibly send him off and away from the ward or any other ward. He could never return here, nor work anywhere else. She was kind and caring, but she could easily send himself away with his career, his life's work, gone in a blink of an eye.

After some time of the basic questions, one question arose, to which he couldn't help himself to answer honestly. She asked himself "What do you see in your current patient, 13?" She asked, his eyebrows furrowing a little to the number. Was it that foreign to himself after having called him by his rightful name for so long? After regrouping a little, he spoke as professionally as he could, "I see a lot, to say the least. He has many ambitions and dreams, to which could never be fulfilled in here. With these ambitions, he seems to strive forward with encouragement in knowing he could better himself much sooner than he could ever think." he started, nodding a little to himself in knowing that was the best, non attached response he could give. No signs of their somewhat intimacy could be shown. They only stayed with one another, there was nothing more to this relationship other than his patient needing physical and mental support.

What did he truly think? It was simple. He saw himself with the patient somewhere far away, somewhere where he can teach him the ways of the world and what he has missed from his years of depravity and seclusion. He saw this light in the patient's eyes, a light to which he himself never really seemed to have grown until he met this patient. In short, he could say that this patient had changed his life. Was he brought here and accepted here in knowing this would be his destiny? He isn't much of a believer, but it seems quite possible that maybe this was his new life forming before himself-

"Erwin?"

Suddenly broken from his current train of thought, he shook his head a little, snapping himself back as he looked to the rather confused Doctor. "My apologies, can you restate the question." He spoke as his eyes seemed to have softened a little. He didn't realize it, but Hange took some notes as he spoke. "I asked for your opinion, not the typical bullshit they teach ya in class.." She spoke, her voice not threatening, but there was something hidden there to which he knew not to ask her to repeat the question again. That sudden wall coming back as his eyes grew sharp, per usual, he answered "What I see, Hange, is what every Doctor wants to see in their patient. I don't understand what you mean by how "I see it". I already told you how I see it."

Seeing the Doctor sigh a little as she arose from the desk, she didn't say anything else, but she didn't have to say more than what she was doing. Looking to his hands for a quick moment as a pain shot through them, he was suddenly adverted to the screen as he heard the static. It was quite an old ward no they didn't have the most modern technology, maybe it was to better the patients so nothing seemed to change. It was as though time, space, and the theory that evolution had stopped here at the ward.